Oh, hey Steffi.

I Remember Each and Every Line

2011-12-14T01:40:00.000+10:00

It's finally the end of the year. My summer break started the day my last paper was done, around mid November. Since then, it's just been a lot of time spent waiting for my work shifts. Lots of reading, movies, series, adventures with Amanda etc. I haven't mentioned Amanda on my blog before but she's becoming a good friend of mine. Well, the only friend I hang out with in Brisbane. We get along really well and she's really lovely. You'll see her face in some of the pictures below.

Originally, I had a mental list of things to accomplish this summer. I never really wrote it down cause then I'd feel like an ass for not finishing but one of them was to read as many books as I can. Usually I'm a pretty fast reader but something about being on holiday and knowing I have so much time to read has made me really slow.

I started this post yesterday but got sidetracked by my Skype session with Sheldon. Now, I can't seem to word anything I wanted to say yesterday. Also, mom's in Brisbane to attend Charlene's graduation tomorrow. I am a complete failure these holidays. As always, I intend on making up for it with pictures. :P

PICTOBLOG

Full moon

Belly when she came to visit

the only picture we've taken together.

Damn wind!

stuff i bought at the Suitcase Rummage flea market

Amanda!

study group!

the first thing i saw in Amanda's room

1960s Dunhill lighter for $8

Ben and Jerry's Open Air Cinemas!

Byron Bay camping trip

Byron's main beach

Sabrina, Charlene & Tommy

I made Charlene a mermaid

Young surrounded by my tiny castles.

fine. they're not really castles.

Action shots!

Talia playing us wonderful music in our tent

Doug's award giving ceremony :D

Book list:
1. One Day - David Nicholls
2. The Name of the Star - Maureen Johnson

I'm currently reading The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. Haven't gotten very far into it just yet but I'm excited to continue reading. :D

This post is brought to you by Amanda and Daniel's prompts. Twas a joint effort, albeit mutually unaware.
Enjoy your Christmases, everybody! :) I know i will.

Cause You Left All I Had On The Forest Floor

2011-10-01T22:46:00.000+10:00

So I'm on my one week mid semester break right now. Classes start up again on Monday. I haven't been doing much to be honest and a lot has changed since my last post. For about a month, I was just really upset and out of focus cause it felt like the floor was pulled out from under me all of a sudden but these days, I've been feeling pretty good. I actually feel a lot more like i did last year. So yay!

I'll attempt to give you a run through of what's been happening but unfortunately, I stopped writing in my journal awhile back so I'll just have to try and remember! Well, all my mid semester exams have been dealt with and I now have a job. :D

Rigghhttoo. Anyways, on Monday I went down to the Gold Coast with Charlene, Tommy and Douglas for some arcade fun and laser tag. They were kind enough to make a trip out of dropping me off for Brigitte's birthday dinner. :D Brigitte is a friend of mine from Tshung Tsin who moved to Gold Coast in Form 4. Her birthday dinner was the first time i saw her in a loonnnngg time. I stayed overnight at Brigitte's after a night of pizza and drinking girly cocktails. The next day we took drives around Gold Coast.

Then it was Tommy's birthday on Thursday. He wanted to go skydiving and had booked a time earlier on in the week but due to weather conditions, it was cancelled. Sadnezzz. So we came home and went back to sleep. Tommy had a party at his place and then afterwards we went to Klub Kandy. It's an event that was going on at Family (a club) and it just so happened to be a halloween party. So we dressed up! Charlene and Tommy went as Stefan and Elena from Vampire Diaries and I went as a corpse bride. Douglas went to Tommy's party as a mixture of a transformer and a pirate and a knight and batman. *shrugs* go figure. :P Last minute costume decisions! It was all good fun.

PICTOBLOG

This is Brigitte!

Surfers Paradise

Tommy putting on makeup. :P

Toblerone cake!

Joey and I. :3

TROLLFACE!

Blublublu. I've been so bored lately. Going back to uni on Monday is going to be gah. Till next time!

This Time I'm Not Leaving Without You

2011-08-20T01:31:00.003+10:00

I can't stop listening to You and I by Lady Gaga. :3 Mason Lockwood from Vampire Diaries is in the video. If you haven't seen it, you can watch it here.

Let's see. My last update was about Easter break before my finals. Since then I've:

turned nineteen
finished first semester
returned to KK
boxed up the contents of an entire apartment in two days
returned to Brisbane
hung out with Sam and Orson who visited from Sydney
had Harry Potter movie marathons before watching the final movie
started second semester
flown to Sydney to celebrate mom's birthday with her after the first week of class & made it back in time for my Monday morning class
completed my first two assessments this semester
finally been to Ekka

It would be accurate to say that Sam and Orson are Tommy and Charlene's best couple friends, who study in Sydney. They came to visit us for a week. During that time, we went to Movieworld twice, Seaworld once and Wet n Wild during the icy end of winter (not our brightest idea). We also went strawberry picking, wine tasting, glow worming, go-carting, had poker nights and Spit tournaments, in which we managed to rank ourselves, stayed over in Gold Coast and visited Sunshine Coast. Before Sorson arrived, Charlene and I drew up an itinerary of their visit and included meal choices and places of interest so we wouldn't waste any of their time. During those few nights, the guys would be playing Fifa while the girls would be taking naps cause we'd wake up so early in the morning to begin the activities on said itineraries. Either that or we'd start drinking and playing cards. All good fun. Then Sorson left and we thought we'd only be seeing them at the end of the year back in KK.

BUT THEN! (Gasp! Twist!)

After my first lecture this semester, we were told that mom would be in Sydney that coming weekend for some meetings and not in KK with Jamie to celebrate her birthday like we'd originally planned. So Char and I decided that we'd fly over to Sydney to hang out with mom after my last lecture of the week, which was on Wednesday. That night we reached Sydney, took a train from the airport and navigated our way through the city to find mom's hotel. The rest of the week, we'd spend our mornings and early afternoons with either Sam or Orson between their classes, roaming the city, eating at the fish market till we acquired a gag reflex to raw oysters, shopped a lot because everything in Sydney was on sale. :D Also, we'd stare at handsome sushi makers (well, it was really just the one and we established that while he was quite good looking, his ears stuck out and his body wasn't really proportional to his head ). Afterwards, mom would join us and we'd do a lot of exploring and shopping and eating. :D Eating is wonderful. :3 It was lovely seeing mom again so soon after KK.

We went to Ekka on Wednesday! By we, I mean Char, Tommy, Doug and I. And by Ekka, I'm talking about this agricultural fair in Brisbane every year. They have cows, goats, dogs, cows, llamas, cows, rollercoasters, cows, strawberry ice cream, cows, game stalls to win soft toys, cows, face painting, show bags, cow dung, cotton candy, bumper cars and horrible excuses of Corndogs. We spent quite a big playing games and riding rides and on the entrance fee. It was fun but I doubt we'd go again. :P I have no photos of Ekka cause I didn't know what to expect and I wanted to ride rides and not have to worry about my camera.

I'm quite lazy to talk about the rest. But I tell you what. I'll caption some of the photos from the PICTOBLOG below since they're out of order. Only some cause some are pretty self explanatory. Okay? (y)

PICTOBLOG

Char, Tommy, Me, Sam and Orson in our pajamas

Intense chess match between Tommy and Orson with the rest of us being advisers.

Waiting for the train in Sydney

Wandering around trying to locate Sam who claimed she was on the same block island in Sydney.

Sydney Opera House

Street painter in Sydney

Mom's birthday cake with sparkler candles

The view from our hotel room in Sydney

Our Gold Coast hotel room before going to SinCity

le couples

deciding who has to drink more beer

Sam and Orson taking a break from dancing

So many dolphins! :3 they responded to us calling for them with our dolphin calls.

Yes. We sounded like idiots. BUT THEY CAME!!

Sea lion and seal show! :D

We literally ran past all the children and parents slowly making their way to the auditorium when we heard that the show had just started.

Dolphin show. :3 They're so smart.

It'd be eerie if they didn't look so adorable and not sinister at all.

Polar bears having a swim at Seaworld

Manta rayyyy!

These are live penguins.

In one pet shop in Gold Coast, the owner lets people take the puppies home for a night so they're not alone in the shop. Such a cool concept! You get to get all the impulsive I-want-a-dog out of you for a night.

Strawberry farm!

Pelicans waiting for scraps from fishermen gutting their fish.

Sam insisted that there were hardly any photos of me. Grabbing cash before heading to the Casino.

Hazel! :3

Raisin!

Us and Kate in Melbourne

Alex is in this photo. Therefore, Melbourne.

I've been playing a lot of Swapples and Draw My Thing lately. Be one of my recruits plz? :3 I want a star.
Click HURRR. Thank youuuuuu! :3
I guess that's it. KBAI! :D

p.s. Emily, i hope this pleases you. <3

I've been listening to You and I the whole time that i was writing and uploading photos for this post.
Plays as of right now: 29

You Only Stand To Break My Heart

2011-05-15T01:12:00.000+10:00

A lot of stuff has been going on, guys. And I know I missed my once-a-month post in April, which I have to admit is pretty pathetic that I can't even do a post a month anymore. But i come bearing gifts! Or rather, pictures!

PICTOBLOG

oh yes, it's back.

Douglas has joined us in Australia now. Which is definitely a good thing since he would have been alone a lot in KK. Also a good thing since he wasn't at home when we were robbed.

Anyways, on to our Melbourne trip during the Easter break.

This is Cleo! She's my Uncle Shin's dog. She's sooooo adorable. :3 When she likes you, she brings this ball to you to play catch with.

We had lunch at Aunty Mee Mee's house! She prepared everything and it was so good.

Just look at that Lemon cake and tell me it doesn't look absolutely delicious. I dare youuu.

This is Mitchell and Jarod!

The new set of twins in our big family! :D

The other being Jordan and Sheldon. :D

THEY'RE SO CUTE. AREN'T THEY? AREN'T THEEYYY?!

Jarod drinking milkd. :

Mom and half of her siblings.

Cousins and aunties

We went up Mount Dandenong and walked around the National Rhododendron Gardens.

Kinda looks like pieces of shit, doesn't it? :P

LET'S ALL HAVE SOME SHROOMS!

The Nobbies!

Oh right, Alex came and hung out with us. :D

It's so pretty and cold there.

Dim sum with the family. :)

PHOTOBOMBERS.

All because i did this in December.

CHOW CHOW. :3

Anyways, guys. Our house in KK was broken into on Wednesday. I don't really feel like talking about it much cause I don't really know what to say about it. It's just been a series of unfortunate events, i guess. Beeteedubs, if you haven't read a Series of Unfortunate Events, you might want to. I enjoyed it. Granted I don't remember much of it now but that's cause I read it YEAARRRRRSSS ago and my memory retention really isn't great.

Yeap, second half of the semester and I'm done with all my assignments. The only thing left is to conquer my finals! Life.

Love,

Steffi.

And We Don't Know How

2011-03-21T19:17:00.002+10:00

I'm determined to post here at least once a month. Just to keep in the habit of writing regularly. It's a really low standard that I'm instilling as of now. I'll blog as frequent as I can motivate myself to but I don't want to make any empty promises.

Supppppp, tumbleweeds? Blogging here seems like it's becoming a monthly thing. I'm back in Brisbane and amidst my first year in uni. While the amount of time spent on campus has decreased immensely to a mere 12 hours a week, majority of the extra time has gone into doing readings and preparing for lectures and tutorials. It's quite a big change from high school and foundation. There is, quite literally, so much time on your hands when you start out, you have no idea what to do in that spare time. So you decide to fill that time with Skype sessions with buddies and catching up on series you haven't been watching for awhile, unaware that you're wasting time you're supposed to be spending reading up on the countless chapters ruthless lecturers assign you to know before your class. I'm dramatizing all of this.

For the past half an hour, I've been trying to upload photos into my blogposts with different browsers but to no avail. I don't even know if reverting back to the stone age Internet Explorer will be much help but I've decided that I'm going to type up what I want to say before worrying about the photos since the focus of a post is writing what you want to say right? And photos are a secondary, albeit more attractive, feature of a blog.

Wow! Internet Explorer worked! Guess I shouldn't hate on you so much and give you more credit. :P For the record, the browsers that have failed me today is Opera, Firefox and Chrome. And yes, that means that I have all 4 browsers on my computer.

Anyways, last week I graduated from Foundation though technically I'd ended my two semester Foundation program last year. It was pretty awesome seeing everyone again since it's pretty hard bumping into each other with our personalized schedules of classes in the big city campus, Garden's Point. We didn't get robes but it's no big deal considering the graduation that really matters is the one when we complete our degree or master, depending on which we're doing.

It was nice sharing with you guys after such a long time and I'll try my best to do it with more finesse and frequency. Till next time, take care of yourselves!

Love,

Steffi.

Edit:
Danile Chen is being a baby about me not mentioning him in my post. So here you are, Danile. :P hihihi miss you ba.

Suddenly I'm Not So Young

2011-02-13T04:24:00.000+10:00

My goodness! It's been awhile. I'm sorry if you've been waiting to read about my year end trip for a month now! To be honest, it's likely I'm not going to write it out. Lazy Steffi is lazy. Blog posts have been slow this year, seeing as this is only my second post this year and it's February. That really tells you something doesn't it? I've been taking in my summer vacation. Spending it with people who I care about and care about me. It's all been very laid back and chilled. Not at all how uni is going to be this year.

Speaking of uni, I've got all my classes lined up and sorted out the enrollment. A little later than most people but at least I got it done. I'm not so excited to go back to Brisbane just yet. Even though a large majority of the people I've been spending my days with aren't around anymore. I guess it's just the lingering feeling that something good's going to happen. But if there's one thing I'm excited about Brisbane, it's... long pause... watches Liverpool Wigan game... I guess it would have to be eating at Top Sushi with Beyla or Ian. I swear that they are my only friends there. OH! I forgot! How silly of me! Another thing that has me quite happy is that Karen is going to be in Brisbane this year. In fact, I just sent her off this morning!

I'll be flying to KL on the 15th to stay overnight with Fay and Titus. :3 Then fly back to Brisbane the next day. I can't wait for Emily and Elayne to come back from Singapore though. So we can spend my last few days in KK this year.

Talk soon!

You Are The Brightest

2011-01-09T06:19:00.001+10:00

Happy New Year everyone! I realize I'm nine days late, but there's nothing really that can be done about that. Actually, I probably could've dropped in for a short update but I figured it'd be best if I waited until I had something to say and update about to update rather than updating for the sake of updating cause I know how annoying that can be. Even though I do short updates as well.

While blog hopping,
Me: Oooh an update!! :DDDD I wonder what's been going on with his/her life!
Blogger: hey guys just a short update...
Me: FFFUUUUUUU

I'm not saying that short updates are definitely horrible updates, but sometimes I wish I could read a more honest and raw update of their lives rather than getting a few photos (guilty) and some vague sum up of their week (also guilty). And you know what? I'm rambling.

LET THE UPDATE BEGIN!
I shall begin from 2 posts ago.

On the 13th of December, we spent a few days in KL to get some amenities we hadn't already had for the trip. You know, boring stuff. During those few days, I got to meet up with Fay and Titus and had an absolutely wonderful time. It felt really good hanging out with Fay again as i have missed her so much. At the same time, it sucked cause it was only for a few hours. And OBVIOUSLY, that wasn't enough.

Fay looks gorgeous

huhu ugly Titus photo

Fastforward past the horrible fourteen hour flight from KL, and we arrived at London, Stansted airport. We were all really excited about the cold. Cold, at the time because it wasn't snowing. Yet.

TRUTH BE TOLD I'M SO LAZY TO TYPE SHIT OUT. ESPECIALLY AFTER WAITING FOR THE PHOTOS TO UPLOAD TO BLOGGER. IF YOU WANT TO LISTEN TO MY WORDS AND STORY, IMMA UPDATE TMR. IF NOT, YOU CAN JUST GUESS WHAT WENT ON AND TELL ME. :P FORGIVE MEEEE!!! good night. :3

also the order is messed up. so.. :P It's probably best if you came back tomorrow.

Cause You're Not Where You Belong

2010-12-20T07:29:00.000+10:00

It upsets me how much has changed in a year. Happy December, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, everyone.

& Happy birthday, Derek. Once again, i'm not around for your birthday. Though i guess, it doesn't really matter anymore. Have fun and I wish you well.

For the rest of you, i'll see you when i get back.

Christmas love,
Steffi.

Just To Even The Score

2010-12-13T06:07:00.001+10:00

I know I haven't updated you guys in awhile & since I'm leaving the country soon, i figured i should tell you guys what's been going on. & also, the urge to blog is stronger when you actually have things to do. You guys know what I'm talking about. Say it with me. Procrastination.

Anyways, I've been spending most of my days doing mundane things and my nights hanging out with the same few people. People being Emily. It's been great seeing her again and having our scintillating conversations irl as opposed to communicating via Skype, text or twitter, like we have been. Unfortunately when we're together, the urge to take photos completely disappears which results in me not having a lot of photos of Emily. I'm hoping to correct that in January when I come back.

In case you're confused, we're taking a family trip to the UK. Huzzah! I've never been there so I'm super excited & also, it's been snowing there and I've never seen snow. It's going to be great, i hope. We'll be going to London, Paris and Scotland. Hopefully, we'll get a glimpse of Nessie. The trip is two weeks long and I'll be back on the 2nd of January. That's our trip, basically. Our flight to KL is tomorrow morning and we'll be staying there for a few days which gives me time to meet up with Fay. *Excited face*

Anyways, the OC gang finally had our annual hang out on the 29th of November. Jotting the date down just so I'll remember. It's been difficult for the four of us to meet up at the same time since we're all separated. The last time we met up 4/4, was 8th of September 2009. Awesome stuff. The short version of the day is Ryan was late, tricked into watching Rapunzel (ahem, I mean Tangled), Daytona, DDR, photoshoot, beach, sunset, skipping rocks, gym. Sorry, I don't feel like going too much into detail but at the same time, i don't want to forget so... this works! :D IT'S A WIN WIN SITUATION. Not really though cause you guys don't get to hear about it. Pssshhhtt as if we want to hear about it. DAMN STRAIGHT YOU WANNA HEAR ABOUT IT. okay stop.

Photos for your viewing pleasure. All of the photos from November are up here.

The degree to which i miss them is insane. It feels like punishment, not being able to see them everyday. blebleble. We just get along really well and that doesn't happen a lot for me. Oh, ill-fated affinities destined to end.

This post took a lot longer than I thought it would. I hope it pleases you and that you enjoyed reading it. Thank you & please come again!

Like Monsters Are Real

2010-10-28T06:37:00.000+10:00

This past month has been extremely difficult for us. What was a sense of excitedness of returning to KK after my first year of studying abroad turned to dismay after hearing what had happened. It felt like I was in a nightmare. & it still does.

The world is still spinning and people are living their lives, everything seems the same but nothing's the same, not to us. I miss my dad & I'm sure he'd love to if he could but he can't come back. It's heartbreaking, really. A friend of Jamie's told her that it's not something you get over, but something you learn to accept. And i think that's pretty accurate.

I've been seeing 4wd cars around KK these days which makes me think that the 4x4 Borneo Safari is happening soon since it happened around the same time last year. If you're a long term reader of mine, you might remember my dad and I taking the Renegade to kick it off last year. We had said that we'd finish it in 2010 together, the whole 8 days. It's unreal how things can change so suddenly and have such a big impact on your life.

Awhile ago, I'd found myself thinking that he was just away in KL or Sandakan like he always was. But that was unhealthy. And apparently I wasn't the only one who had thought this way. Charlene told me she felt the same way but we both agreed that we needed to deal with the situation and not be in denial. Wouldn't want to go mental.

And on that lovely note, while there is so much I could say about my dad, I'm just going to end by saying that he was the best dad anybody could ever have and we'll always love him and we miss him dearly.

Rest in Peace, dad.

You were the awesomest & I hope you're having fun.

Love, your daughter.

I Am Here Now

2010-09-23T23:50:00.000+10:00

If you haven't already seen my new video, you can watch it here. Cause for some reason, it isn't showing up in the sidebar.

Anyways! My exams are starting on Saturday & I have a feeling I've already told you this. If I haven't then it must just be my imagination. If any of you are actually interested, I managed to finish The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. It was pretty good and I really enjoyed it. Well, it's not really a book that is enjoyed but it's experienced. You should read it. Anyway, I've moved on to reading The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde and I haven't read very far into the book but already I'm hooked. Now I just need to unhook myself so I can study for my finals.

I apologize for the lack of updates and I will see you in two weeks.

Bye!

Swimming Through Sick Lullabies

2010-09-19T17:03:00.000+10:00

I can't believe it's Sunday already and i have class tomorrow! It's quite upsetting that the weekend has flown by so quickly.

This weekend was kicked off with a little dinner party at our place followed by some hanging around, Man Bites Dog and Blockus 3D. Everything seems to be in 3D these days and it's starting to get ridiculous.

Man Bites Dog is a hilarious game which if you haven't already heard of, you should check out. Basically you have to make up headlines with words on different cards but the sentence (statement) has to be grammatically correct. & most of the time the headlines are absolutely ridiculous, like "PRIEST RUNS AWAY WITH DOG" or "ROMANTIC KILLER DRUGS BLIND JUDGE". It was hilarious.

We probably stopped playing and dispersed around 3 or 4am. That was a good night.

Saturday and Sunday was spent at home. I really haven't left the house since i returned from English class on Friday. Take that as you may.

Anyways, i'm going to get back to reading The Bell Jar because i aim to finish reading it today. I've been stuck on this book for waaaayyyy too long.

Hope you've had a great weekend!

People Like To Call Us Dreamers

2010-09-17T01:36:00.000+10:00

Presentation Week is over for me! I had two of my presentations today and eventhough it was majorly hectic. I'm glad I got it over with and now I can relax. If only for a little while.

Next week up, revision week. Not much to say today. Except TGIF.

Proper update soon enough. But I need to catch some Zs.

In Another Life

2010-09-12T23:57:00.001+10:00

As you guys know, my parents and brother came to visit us this week and a half-ish. It's a shame they came this week, which happened to be the week when the last of my assignments were due. There were a few days that I couldn't hang out with them cause I'd be in the computer lab working on my assignments till early in the morning. Then I'd come home to find them all sitting around playing their games or talking or eating.

It was nice to see them again. And they were very excited to be here. I'll be seeing them again quite soon. So I'm glad. We just sent them off to the airport and their flight probably just took off. Fun schtufff.

Anyways! My dad bought iPads for himself and my mom and we've been teaching them how to use it. Mom even took notes with diagrams and stuff. So adorable. And they were playing games on them in the morning before we woke up.

We didn't get to go anywhere like Gold Coast or movie world or dream world or any other world due to Charlene's and my class schedules but we've been busy dealing with some other stuff so it's all good. Now it's back to it just being the three of us again. Crowded house is not that crowded anymore.

In other news, D: presentations this week.

My Heart's In Motion

2010-09-05T01:58:00.001+10:00

I have to admit. I've been absolutely obsessed with it ever since my brother synced it up. I didn't think I'd be all that interested but... peg me smitten.

It's an iPod touch. Not the iPhone and it was given to my dad from a friend of his and he said he had no use for it and so he gave it to me! :D I need to start controlling my obsession of this thing before it gets the better of me. Especially now that everything is getting so busy.

My parents and brother came on Friday evening and we've been busy watching movies and eating and eating. Mom likes feeding us a lot. To quote Charlene, "Mom will never let us die of hunger but maybe she might let use die of fullness". Weelll, she said it in chinese so it sounds slightly weird in English.

These are macaroons that Charlene bought for us to taste test from the Farmers' Market on Wednesday. It's a shame that our parents weren't here when that happened but oh well. We can always get some more this coming Wednesday. There were twelve different flavours including lavender, green tea and pistachio. I can't list them out because I can't remember. Sorry!

Also! Here's something I'm quite excited about. I was assigned my first ad from Nuffnang and it starts airing today. Heh. Weird overly excited inner nerd of self accomplishment. My advertiser is Bega. Anyways, from time to time if you have nothing to do after visiting my blog or if you like me and you don't mind the trouble, please click on the ad. But you know, only if you want to. *hides excitement* But for some reason it's not showing up on my Chrome so I had to use the pod to get a screenshot of it.

Anyways! Tomorrow is the day that my family goes to Ikea and have their famous meatballs. Unfortunately, I won't be able to join them because I'll be at P Block working my ass off on the three assignments due this coming week. But I do not fret, for soon it all shall be over! :DD yes, sometimes i switch between modern english and archaic english.

So, how have you guys been going?

You Can't Understand

2010-08-30T00:05:00.000+10:00

Not much went on this weekend. Majority of the weekend was spent lying in bed reading or doing assignments. Reading was fun. and my bed was fun. :3 i love my bed.

Anyways, interrupting my proclamation of love towards my bed, I saw Vampires Suck today! It was a spur of the moment kind of thing. And all I can say was that it was exactly what I expected.

Messy room is messy. Anyways, it's very much cleared up now since the parents are coming this coming week. Excited!

Photos > words today because I'm about to go to bed so my week can restart. DREAD!

Good night!

Turmoil Of The Night

2010-08-28T00:02:00.000+10:00

I swear every time Friday rolls around I freak out. Mostly because it's the only time you're not worrying your head off thinking .. i just killed a mosquito. win. .. and recalling all the things you need to get done and in what order and by when. It's such a relief. This is the part where I tell you about what has been going on.

I had an economics assignment due on Friday by 9am in both hard copy and soft copy. Naturally I worked on it on Thursday after my last class of Accounting at 6pm till around 12.30am which is when I happily discarded my assignment into the assignment box. I walked home, took a shower and waited to fall asleep. I started reading till a point where my vision was getting blurry due to my extreme tiredness. At that point, I turned off the light and climbed back into bed where I was greeted by minutes upon minutes of staring at the ceiling in the darkness and thinking about things that I would only think about when I can't sleep. Torture. My own personal form of torture. I don't know why my mind does this to me.

Class starts late on Fridays. And by late, I mean 1pm. The schedule I was assigned is pretty sweet because with the exception of Wednesdays, my classes generally start after 11am. After class, I got excited by the prospect of going book hunting. Something I had done many times before with companions. Unfortunately, I always felt bad for making them wait around for me while I took my time browsing and running to other book shops. So today I went alone and I did very well! :D I bought 3 books today.

Books I bought:
1. Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins
I have been meaning to buy this book and read it for quite awhile now. However, funds were tight and books are expensive. BUT I HAZ IT NAO!

2. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
It's a classic so I had to read it.

3. The Beach by Alex Garland
This one was sort of a last minute request from Jamie. She had read a copy of it which belonged to her friend and she wanted a copy and apparently it was a good book and that I should read it.

DROOL. I can't wait to start reading. I'm currently still on The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. Loving it. I haven't read a lot this year but I'm starting to get back into the swing of it. Most definitely a good thing! I guess you could say that buying books to me are like buying shoes are to an average girl. An average girl who gets a bit crazy when it comes to shoes and wants to own every pair of feet hating shoes that have ever been invented. Heh.

SO, questions for you guys! 1) What are you reading right now? or What books would you like to read? 2) What recommendations do you have for me? 3) What is your 'reading books' or 'buying shoes'?
Let me know down in the comments!

No photos today because I'm horrible and haven't been treating Frank fairly.

Find Out How Much They Can Take

2010-08-24T21:16:00.000+10:00

Hey guuuyysss! Things have been getting busier and busier as week by week we're approaching our final exams. It has come to that time when a lot of assignments are due in the same weeks and everybody's trying to get them done and submitted in time. So updates might be a bit slow in the coming weeks.

Also! My parents and brother are coming over next week and that's shum exciting news. :D So i'm hoping to get everything done by this week which is unlikely but at least I'd have time to go out with the family. To be honest, their timing could not be worse. Actually, it could if they came during my exam week. :S Figure of speech.

The end is so close i can hardly stand it! I'm super excited to go home and see my friends again and have adventures.

On a different note, I absolutely loathe the moment you calculate the totals of the trial balance of an account because when it doesn't balance and you have accounting class bright and early in the morning tomorrow. FUUUUUUUUU. But seriously, i've been looking for this error of $2.65 for over 40 minutes now. :S I've decided that I'm going to make myself dinner first then I'll maybe redo it. All over again. :C

Anyways, my table isn't only messy this week because I've been busy with homework and such but it's actually always very messy. I'm guilty of not being neat.

my tea is cold.

so tragic.

It's A Simple Fact

2010-08-17T23:47:00.000+10:00

Listen up, kids. I'm about to drop some knowledge. Here are some things I've learned over the years:

1. Never leave things to the last minute.

Sounds easy enough right? I have some trouble with this one because often things come up and get in the way of what you need to do. Be sure to stare down the urge that wants to tell yourself eh, i can do it tomorrow. Sure you could but in most cases, you'd probably find something else that sounds better and more fun.

In short, get your shit done before you decide to do something fun that won't benefit your future.

2. Never overlook the time you have with good company/You don't know what you've got till it's gone.

The thing about this is I realized it a little too late. I suppose sometimes you never really think about what would change after you leave or you get separated. Clichéd, but i guess you can also call this 'You don't know what you've got till it's gone'. Fine. I'll add it up there. Happy?

3. Accept change.

Change is bound to happen no matter what and that is a fact. There's no point lingering in the past. Embrace change and learn to enjoy it. It definitely makes life less miserable.

4. Always listen to your parents' advice.

Cause most of the time they're telling you because no one else will tell you and they're only looking out for you. Unless.... they tell you to kill yourself or something abusive like that. In that case, don't but you know what I'm talking about right?

5. Try your hardest at everything.

I definitely have some regrets about not applying myself very well in secondary school and in learning my violin. Can't help but wonder what I'd be doing now if I'd gotten 98.9% average or if i had finished my grade 8. Maybe i'd be doing music right now.

But I digress. I really do mean it, though. Do your best so you won't have any regrets.

6. Finally, enjoy life.
I understand that sometimes you just feel like wallowing but that would just represent another day wasted. I know it doesn't sound like much but I'm 18! Already! hah i'm legal. It's strange because I remember when I used to wish that I'd grow up sooner so I can go out by myself etc. This year has gone by so fast. Soon I'll be home and with friends and family again. I can hardly wait.

This is one of my favourite quotes by Oscar Wilde.

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

Moving on!

I woke up around 7am today, before my alarm. I have no idea why I even woke up so early. My class today starts at 11am. D: I couldn't get back to sleep, so I worked on some research we had to do.

Life's great! Can't sleep early! Can't wake up late!

Actually it wasn't too bad. Classes were as they are all the time and I made the most of it. After the last class, I went to the computer lab to work on some homework. After I bade my friends goodbye and started walking to the main door, I noticed that a bag of crisps was stuck in the vending machine. And I just had to.

I called a few of my friends over and they tried shaking the vending machine but to no avail. So we decided that it'd be a gamble to see if we could dislodge that pack by buying one of the keropoks above that one. When it didn't work, another friend decided that the weight of both of the packs were heavy and another pack would prove to be heavy enough to make all of them come down. It didn't. I went back to the computer lab and asked another friend to come take a look cause he was missing everything. hahaha After a lot of kicking and shoving of the vending machine, he decided that the momentum would be big enough to get everything moving. hahah in the end, there were just four packs of crisps. Sitting there. Everybody got fed up and went back to the computer room and i went home. The End.

Oh! And I've added these two buttons down here so it'd be great if you guys could give me some feedback on my posts so I'll know what you like and what you don't like. And also, leave me some comments so i'll know that i'm not just talking to myself.

The Doctor Isn't Here This Time

2010-08-15T02:27:00.000+10:00

My week of sleeping in and movie watching is over! Oh, distress! Marion inspired me to blog again. And more frequently too. So, thanks Marion! I'll find content for you guys. Promise!

Anyhow, today was spent like every other day this week. Waking up way into the afternoon and having lunch at 3pm. Then I did a bit of my homework and got frustrated because the Malaysian websites lack so much information. It's just. D: Then we had dinner at the Pancake House. :3 It's actually called Perfect Pancakes but we just call it the pancake house.

Yes, I had pancakes for dinner. Be jealous.

Currently listening to: Love is not a value of Pi. Which would explain my drawing.

Bring Bring

2010-08-12T03:53:00.003+10:00

Hey! Hi! Hello!

I've been feeling amazing these days. I'm having my one week mid semester break which is short but extremely necessary. Because what comes up in the following weeks are going to be torture. But you know, i'm just taking this one day at a time. I've been sleeping late, waking up late. The usje. hahaha Usje. I wonder if anyone would get this, it's a word i use quite a bit but i've never attempted to spell it so this is interesting. Woo. Everything seems interesting these days. *points to self* Easily amused.

Honestly, I get amused at the silliest things. Silliest, is that a word? Anyways, I do! In my Accounting class, my teacher, Ian always tells lame jokes and tries to make us laugh. One day, he told us one, which i will share with you later, and I still laugh about it whenever I think about it. That day was 3 months ago. I'm not kidding. Oh Steffi, how would you know the exact date of the day Ian told you that stupid joke? I know because I actually wrote it down in my diary. As in my schedule diary that i keep every year. I wrote "Ian told construction joke. ha-ha-hilarious."

Anyways, here's the joke. Don't be surprised if it's super lame because that's just my sense of humour.

So there are 3 construction workers sitting atop a crane suspended high in the sky during lunch break. The first construction worker opens up his lunch box and pulls out a ham sandwich. He says, "If my wife packs another ham sandwich for me tomorrow, I'll kill myself!" The second construction worker opens his lunch box and pulls out steamed potatoes. He says, "If I get more steamed potatoes for lunch tomorrow, I'll kill myself!" The third construction worker opens his lunch box and pulls out some fried chicken. He says, "If I have to eat fried chicken again tomorrow, I'll kill myself."

So the next day, the first construction worker opens his lunch box and see ham sandwiches. He jumps off the crane and kills himself. The second construction worker opens his lunch box and sees steamed potatoes and jumps off and kills himself. The last construction worker opens his lunch and see fried chicken and jumps off and kills himself.

At the company funeral held for the three workers, their grieving wives started talking. The wife of the first man said, "If he had only told me that he didn't want to eat anymore ham sandwiches, I would have packed him something different and he'd still be alive." The wife of the second man said, "Yeah, I packed him steamed potatoes because I thought he enjoyed eating them!" The wife of the last man said, "I don't know why the hell my husband killed himself. He packs his own lunch!!"

Thus ends the horrible joke. To be perfectly honest, I had to pause to laugh before i wrote on. Ahhhhh.

Anyways, earlier this evening... day... Whatever. Earlier today, I watched Night of the Living Dead with a bunch of people. In case you guys don't know, Night of the Living Dead was the first zombie film evar, directed by George A. Romero. He only does zombie films. Though technically in his films, the Z word is never used. We watched the original which is the 1968 version and not the remake. Classic. Anyways, it was really quite adorable because these zombies are not like the 28 Weeks Later zombies. They actually walk really slowly. But I'm sure back in the 60s, the mere concept of dead people coming back to life to feed on human flesh must have been quite a scare. It's definitely a classic so I recommend watching it even though it was quite comical.

The reason I've been watching so many movies lately is because I actually have quite bad taste in movies, according to my sisters and that's okay because, after all, I am quite easily amused. During the course of this one week holiday, I have been assigned 'homework' by my sister and I've been watching them because I need to be enlightened. So far it's not too bad. I haven't left the house since Sunday when my relatives from Melbourne and Japan came to visit and spent their last night with us. I've been having Pajama Day for days now! And i actually think i should go outside for a bit tomorrow. And oh! It's been raining! My toes I love the rain!

Rain = better sleep = no construction = awesomeness

I should probably get to bed because I need to start correcting my sleep cycle before school starts and I become a walking zombie.

Wow, it's been a very long time since the last long post. :)

The Role We Play Is So Important

2010-08-11T03:42:00.002+10:00

I watched 5 movies today. The verdict: 5/5 good movies.

The first was Singin' in the Rain. It was adorable and i have a weakness for musicals.

Next, I watched Wicker Park. It was exciting.

Third, I watched the Machinist. The first thing i noticed was how skinny Christian Bale was. It was almost gross. Which is interesting because right after they finished filming The Machinist, he had to buff up for Batman. Good acting and I liked the story.

District 9. Was sad. :( it was action packed too. But ultimately, sad. :(

Last, I watched Night Watch. It's a German film and my sister tells me it was made on a very low budget and i'm very impressed. It was very interesting.

Overall, it's been a great day.

rawr i want more.

Dirty Like Your Face

2010-07-28T22:23:00.003+10:00

Happy August, guys!

Thing's have been heating up as mid semester is coming close and it's been a busy couple of weeks. Assignments and presentations have been happening and and and yes. D:

I really just wanted to say happy august. And now that i have...
harlequin

Bai!

Back Round And Round

2010-07-28T01:25:00.000+10:00

Sakit hati oh i see all these messages. Some in a good way, others not so much. I always do this to myself everytime I clear my inbox. Argh! It's so silly. It just started to rain. D: how am i gonna wake up later? :( knight.

Make Me Think That Maybe I Won't Die Alone

2010-07-25T22:34:00.000+10:00

Yesterday night we celebrated Vonne's birthday as well as Beyla's birthday, which was on friday. It was quite an awesome night. We went to The Bank Vault cause Vonne's sister works there so most of the drinks were free. By the end of the night, more than half of the group were shit drunk and the rest of us were running around, alternating between people to take care of. We had durian cake and while that might not seem like such a big deal to those of you reading these posts but it was nice after such a long time without it. Weird but it was just another one of those things that made it feel like home again. I'll edit these posts with photos from Saturday night a bit later.

This Is Not Where We Belong

2010-07-24T11:56:00.002+10:00

GAAHHHHHSURPRISEBLOGUPDATE!!!

So, I watched Inception the other night and it was amazing. Seriously. If you haven't seen it yet, it definitely should be on the top of your list. I won't discuss it here cause I don't want to spoil anything for people who haven't seen it yet but if you are looking for a discussion about it. You can talk to me or email me about it and we'll... discuss. Or if you're just looking for a friend to talk to in general (i'm usually quite bored), you can email me at steffobia(at)live.com It's an account that I've had for awhile now and yeah.

So, Week 6 is a day away and it's going to be a busy mid semester. D:

DOING PROJECT WITH BEYLA. FINISH UPDATING LATER OR NEVER. K BAI!

I See Your Future

2010-07-19T11:22:00.004+10:00

Photo courtesy of Twemeh's Facebook!

FINALLLYYYYY!!!!! :DDDD

Mannnnn, it took a long time but I'm so happy for you guys.

Finally!

Love you guys and I'll see you when i get home!

and we can get McDonald's again. :P

hshshhshshhshs

Cause I'm Not Afraid

2010-07-14T22:32:00.002+10:00

BEYLA DAY was fun. :D

Right, this is Beyla. She's from Brunei and and and yeah. She cool. Yeah. I meant to say that without the 's. Cause i'm just badass that way. B/

No, it's not some Australian Day.

ANYWAYS,

we went to check out the places we'd be talking about in our presentation

So we went to the Museum, Gallery of Modern Art and the Art Gallery.

Yeah, they're not the same thing.

AND THE LIBRARY.

My bees, I'm in love with the library.

*DROOL*

One sad thing about it is that it's only a reference library.

Which means you can't borrow books.

Ah well. Guess i'll be spending more and more time there then!

Some more photos from that day.

It was surprisingly hot that day.

the museum

Gallery of Modern Art.

at least.. i think.

hahaha i can't remember which is which.

The point is,

Brisbane isn't too bad right now.

;)

You Can't Play Me That Way

2010-07-10T04:08:00.004+10:00

So how do you guys like the new template? I got annoyed by the last one. Right-o.

Things I did today:

Wake up repeatedly
Curse at the construction going on outside
Go to class
Made awkward small talk at reception
Lunch with Ian
Gai gai with Ian
Ice cream with Ian
South Park with Ian
Dear April with Sabrina at Ric's
Wickham with Sabrina
The Beat with Sabrina
Dave McCormack and Seja with Sabrina

The fact that i actually used the words 'gai gai'. Tsk tsk. I'm disappointed in myself. Anyways, it's week 3 of semester 2. Things are getting busy. Lots of assignments and presentations that need prepping. And tomorrow is Beyla Day! I shall update you guys about it. Sometime.

i need more friends.

I Can Only Tell You What It Feels Like

2010-07-05T01:29:00.000+10:00

Most nights when i'm trying to fall asleep in my room, in the darkness, i can't really see what's in front of me and it feels a little more like home. I feel like i'm back in my room, on my top bunk. It doesn't feel like you guys are a million miles away and i'm not reminded that it's been months since i've spoken to you face to face. Then, a passing car would shine some light into my room and i'd realise that i'm here. And you're not.

Always Another Show

2010-06-22T17:25:00.002+10:00

The Regent was this cinema in the city that was, well, a cinema. It was beaauuuuttttiiiffuulll and we always hang around this cafe called Aromas on the theatre foyer. While Aromas is still there and operating, the cinema itself is closed and I don't know the reasons but I'm assuming that they lacked business. So before it closed, me and Jamie went and took some photos of the place. We even went back a second time. The workers whom I questioned said that it was going to be turned into a shopping mall. WHAAAATTTT. pffffttt. Disappointing. Anyways, this was awhile ago and I'm just using it as an excuse to update. weee. I'll post more when i'm not busy catching up after 3 days of second semester. :/

I Need Another Story

2010-06-10T02:57:00.000+10:00

First semester is officially over! Though, technically it was over last Friday. It matters not cause i have a two week break. Too short to go home. I'm already into my first week though. I got my results for this semester on Tuesday. They were okay but i definitely could've done better. I'm just glad i that half a year is down and i just have another till i can be home again! I haven't gotten round to renovating the ol' blog but i'll get to it sooner or later. ;) been doing a lot of nothing lately and that's exactly how i want to spend my break. I'll send you a postcard from the batcave!

-S

Blame

2010-06-02T01:14:00.001+10:00

I could have sworn that i had posted a new entry a week ago. Maybe i dreamt it. It happens more often than you'd think. I can't quite figure out why it feels like the first semester went by so quickly. It makes me wonder because i know it passed really slowly. It was practically crawling. Maybe i just don't remember and a huge part of that time was just taken out of my memory timeline and that's why it feels short. I'm having my exams this week. Then i'm officially done for this semester. 3 years and a half to go. Woohoo. Before you know it, you're working and trying to race against time before your biological clock runs out. I just need to take this day by day, i guess. Life in Australia isn't as bad as i make it sound, really. I just miss you guys back home where i'm already familiar with you and i don't have to try anymore. :P don't get me wrong. :) so many little rituals and traditions just can't be done this year or the next 3 years. It's great having my sisters around though. At least i'm not as lost as i would be if i were here alone. But honestly, most days i spend in my batcave. Woohoo the life of a legal college student is glamorous! Hahaha but seriously though, i just need the right people. So far, not so great. It'll get better. It HAS to get better.

Also, i'm getting sick of this layout. It's got too much going on and it's so pink. :S might just switch it back to a simple layout. Thoughts? :)

I hate that most of my posts involve apologizing for not updating. But i haven't been updating. :P so i have to apologize. Sssssssoorrryyyyyyy.
C-c-combo breaker!

-S

The Grand Memories Together

2010-05-03T02:16:00.005+10:00

It's May! I'm so happy because in another 6 months, roughly. I'll be home! Ugh. I can't wait. Unfortunately, the joy comes with a heavier workload. We're going into Week 10 and a lot of assignments are due this week, next week, so i've been working on them. And the reason this all sounds so forced is because it kind of was. :P Daniel was bugging me to update so i'm trying really hard to make this less awkward cause there's nothing about my life remotely interesting lately.

Right, anyways. I don't have the photos i've been taking over the past few months because my phone decided it'd be cool to get rid of everything in my memory card. I have lost so many photos. It's tragic. And all i have are photos of the day before Cassie's birthday. Pam gave her a pair of glasses. And we were playing around with it.

Winter's rolling in. I can feel it. The winds are getting stronger and nights are getting colder. I don't even have to turn on my fan at night anymore. My window is open the whole day and my skin feels dry. I'm dreading it a little bit though. We have school in winter and we have to wake up and use the toilet -- the cold toilet seat and walk to school. Even though we don't have snow here. I'm not sure how it's going to be so i need to be prepared.

I'm trying. :P but i can't think of anything else to say. Except. We don't have school tomorrow because it's Labour day. weeeeeee. which means another day to do homework and a day less off the week! ;D REJOICE! Oh! and how do you like my nails? I wanted to try it out when my red was chipping off the edges. :)

And also. I don't know how my sister is going to feel about this if she knew i posted this. :P

Take care, guys. I'll see you soon.

& Over Again.

2010-05-02T16:18:00.003+10:00

Well, we've crossed the first half of the first semester mark and things are starting to get busy! To say that this place has been deserted is an understatement and i'm working on getting back into the swing of things. And by that, i mean full on full length blogging, with photos maybe videos maybe audio. So give me time. :) I'm just hoping what i'm writing is something i'm actually going to do and not just something i'm saying. :P

Innocence Is Falling

2010-04-28T01:02:00.000+10:00

The thing about this place is i haven't been able to have my alone time. I'm constantly communicating with people who ask lots of question. The answers of which they should know had they been paying more attention to everything in general. People are everywhere. And i can get so sick of them sometimes. And right now, there are no exceptions. At. All.

I Don't Hate You, Boy

2010-04-17T23:11:00.003+10:00

Sometimes I'm just uncomfortable when people start getting too close and I back up and try to talk to them less. I realize that I do this surprisingly often and I'm not sure how or if i want to change that about me.

A Baffling Question: Why Isn't Marlee Matlin's 'My Deaf Family' On Television? - Monkey See Blog : NPR

2010-04-12T17:57:00.000+10:00

A Baffling Question: Why Isn't Marlee Matlin's 'My Deaf Family' On Television? - Monkey See Blog : NPR

check this out! :D

Cause You Got Your Own Things

2010-04-12T17:56:00.002+10:00

I've been feeling really antisocial for a while now and i can't really explain it. So i figured that I'd make myself be happy and social and optimistic. So much for that plan. Yeaaaahhh. I'm just going to go back to be quiet.

Dress Me Up In Stitches

2010-04-05T17:13:00.005+10:00

Brisbane.

I haven't been taking many photos at all. And there's really no excuse for it. :(

It's easter break and we have 9 days off. Unfortunately, as we speak, I only have one more week to go. I haven't been doing much except for sleeping late and waking up in the post meridiens. A majority of the gang here have gone to Gold Coast to have fun. I didn't go cause I thought this might be a good time to jump back on the bandwagon of watching series all day and night. I've currently finished watching The Office, Cougar Town, Lie To Me, How I Met Your Mother. When I say finished, I mean up to date, over the course of this holiday.

Like the watermark? I'm still on the fence about it.

This is sesame ice cream from Hanaichi, which i think might just be the best Japanese restaurant around. :D It's colour is cement-like and tbh, the first time i saw it, I really didn't want to eat it. BUT it's amazing.

No. It's amazazing.

Jamie and Kannan

Charlene and Tommy
at Trang, a vietnamese restaurant at West end.

Good food, good food. But we mostly cook here, cause it'd be really expensive if we ate out all the time and also fattening. Some nights we just eat cereal for dinner. ;) I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga, Adam Lambert, and Foo Fighters.

Oh right. We went to Lady Gaga's Monster Ball on the 26th March. It was seriously amazing. She can sing really well. It sounded exactly the same as the album. You know, except there was swearing and talking to the crowd. ;) BUT damn, it was so entertaining. There were so many things to look at -- the stage, the dancers, the costumes. OMG THE COSTUMES!! We counted after the show, and we got to 14 costume changes out of 18 songs she performed. It was insane. We had bought tickets to the show last year. Charlene called me up in KK, asking if I wanted to go. I'm glad I said yes. It was so worth it. :)

Now that i'm done with the series-es(?!), I've had nothing to do except troll youtube and random websites, trying to keep myself entertained. I still have movies that I have but haven't seen, but i'm trying to let brian cool down.

I think it's obvious that i'm going to be using this for my personal life and life in general and just leave my tumblr for random photos and reblogging, ie something i do when i'm bored. :P As always, I'm on twitter if you need to know where and what i'm doing. Sorry it's been so long.

S.C.

Let's Dance For Awhile

2010-04-04T19:29:00.000+10:00

Today, I was texting a girl, and she was complaining about another girl, and how mean she was. I typed "That's because she's bipolar." My phone's autocorrect thought i meant "That's because she's nipple." Yes, Samsung. You nailed it. MLIA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH COME ON. THAT'S HILARIOUS!!

They won't let me turn around

2010-03-30T08:52:00.000+10:00

i'm not enjoying the people here. They're all so OMIGAWD, DO YOU WANT TO SEE LADY GAGA? I HAVE LADY GAGA ON MY PHONE.... uh yeah, i have lady gaga on my phone too. I had it a day before you did and you don't see me shoving it in your face.

hihihihi :3

2010-02-25T10:35:00.002+10:00

BRISBANE IS NICE. I AM SAD AND HAPPY. ITS A BITTERSWEET SITUATION. I MISS YOU GUYS. <3 I'LL TRY TO UPDATE WHEN I'M NOT IN CLASS

KTHXBAI.

CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2010-02-14T23:38:00.000+10:00

Discussing explosions. ;)

You Know You Want To Do It Again

2010-02-07T02:08:00.000+10:00

Hello my blogger people! :D
It's been so long since i've written an actual post. My days have been so depressing and busy that i haven't had the energy to start my brain to write something. That said, this post indicates that my life has turned around. huaazzzzhhh.

LIVERPOOL!

Well, today was the end of our sports day and yellow house got first! :D what up. Eventhough it's amazing news, we only got second in our dancing. And you know how hard we've been working on that. It's kind of a bittersweet win. Marching, first. Dancing, second. Most amount of gold medals, first. It was amazazing. :)

I am so proud of yellow house and senior two, ahem excuse me, i meant to say senior three zhong for really working hard. Shoulder to the wheel! Who says hard work doesn't pay off? Ohhhhh i love you guys so much. :) just seeing your energy and determination makes me so happy. :D

Photos? Facebook is flooded with them. I haven't gotten around to uploading mine yet so don't hold your breath! I always promise photos but fail to deliver so i'm not going to promise anything today.

ATTENTION.
I WILL BE GONE ON THE 12TH OF FEBRUARY. i'll be going to sandakan and will only be back on the 15th morning. My flight to brisbane will be in the evening. i definitely will not have time to hang out that day. MY POINT IS. IF YOU WANT TO HANG OUT WITH ME BEFORE I GO. LOOK ME UP QUICK. BECAUSE I *shy* MIGHT FORGET TO LOOK FOR YOU BEFORE I GO CAUSE THERE'S A LOT ON MY PLATE. ;) fat girl pun. Hihihihihihi

k that's all. Bai nao

I don't mean to sound like a snob, but i can't stand how just because you have a DSLR camera you call yourself a photographer. It's become more of a trend rather than art. And it pisses me the hell off.

2010-02-03T04:09:00.000+10:00

My Arms Are Shaking Like A Lightning Rod

2010-01-17T05:45:00.000+10:00

Hey derek. I was thinking.

The wedding'll be in basel, duh. Or do you think we should get it done at sutera like our last marriage? Also, we need to go over the guest list asap. And about the theme, i'm thinking mafia. But that is negotiable. And the favors. Tommy guns? It'd be preeeeetty memorable. Just sayin.

Dude pick a date and lemme know.

Gosh. Planning a wedding is so stressful. :/

One Of Us Misread

2010-01-15T05:16:00.000+10:00

I can understand how you might feel bad that i'm always picking you guys up or that we go out to hang out with people i hardly know. But the truth is i don't mind any of it. I just genuinely like spending time with you guys in any way that we can cause time we have left together is short and i need to squeeze as much time in before i'm blown away to some other country.

We might live far apart from each other, but what is that distance compared to the one that will be standing between us in a month's time?

I. Am. So. Tired. :(

You'll Never Take That Away

2010-01-14T06:04:00.000+10:00

I don't really care if i tell other people i miss them or whatever, they don't say it back and they kasi kuyak me and maybe even say crap like alaaaaaaaaa i didn't even think about you pun. but when it comes to a friendship of our calibre, it's just not done. i should be seeped so deep into your subconscious that you don't even realise you're missing me but all you'll feel is a physical empty feeling somewhere in your chest. Then you'll try to figure out why you feel so down. And tiba tiba it'll hit you. Omgatz. Somewhere in the world, right now. Steffi's missing me. Then you'll send me a telepathic message. Nahhhhh. Like that ma.

I have way too much time on my hands.

I'm Better Off On My Own

2010-01-09T14:42:00.000+10:00

Blog post!

Okay.

I'm bored and have been too lazy to turn on my computer to upload videos. :P and i have been making videos.

Happy new year even though it's been new year for 9 days now. I haven't been doing anything and i don't know what i will be.

Let's hope i make a real update soon. :)

Steffi

Five Minutes To Midnight

2010-01-01T05:26:00.000+10:00

Happy new year. 2010 baby.

New year's eve. Nerd style. ;)

I want photos please.

-S
heehee copy gg

Cause My Jealous Heart Can't Take This

2009-12-23T02:24:00.005+10:00

Hey guys!

Christmas will be spent in Brisbane. :) We've been going to Ikea a lot. :P the meatballs are delicious. right.

CONGRATULATIONS TO DEREK!!! <333333

SO SO PROUD OF YOU. :D

I've been watching a lot of series(serieses?!) ahahha and it's so hot. (THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID)

hehehehehehee. aiyooooo jemeh my darling is in the shower and i'm waiting for her.

I'm sorry i haven't uploaded any photos or anything but i never know what i'm going to blog about and i don't spend a lot of time on these posts. Just a quick mind puke to put my mind at ease. :)

I WATCHED AVATAR. not the airbender. But the other one with blue people. It was so nice. The storyline was the usual love story but it was so nice and imaginative. For 3 hours, i felt like i wasn't on earth. It was beautiful. :) GO WATCH IT! :D

Anyways, it's late and i should get to bed. :) Mm, okay. One game. :)

Sink

Steff

Maybe I'll Just Sing About It

2009-12-20T02:24:00.000+10:00

AHHHHHHH DEREKYONGQUOTUNG

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I wish i could celebrate with you at least once in the duration of our insanely awesome kickass friendship but alas, it was not in the stars. :(

But whatever because all i need to know is that you're somewhere safe and having a good time. :) which i do cause i just confirmed that with you. :P

Aannnnyyywaayyyssss, love you and happy birthday, kid. ;) Finally seventeen.

Ninja. <3

Sing Me A Song

2009-12-14T11:15:00.005+10:00

Hello, darlings.

Brisbane is so hot this time of year. Summer time. Speaking of Summer, I watch 500 days of summer the other day. i love that movie. <3

My sisters and Shannon went to the airport to send Tomford off, who's going back to KK. Just got word that his flight was delayed. guhhhhh i want to... Actually i don't know what i want or what i want to do. I just know i miss my friends and my bed. :P man i miss my bed.

Currently laid like a pancake out on the couch, listening to pixie and staring at the giant spongebob and gang poster. xD Yeah next year's gonna be a blast. Internet in Brisbane is insane!!! Movies i've been downloading for months, finished in half an hour. Unbelievable!

I miss you guys so much. I've been going online really late to chat with danile and jamie. <3

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AARON HENG!

How was that? Let's play an esoteric game. ;) luck.
Kal-El

Steffi

Send Me Emails Cause I'll Miss You!

2009-12-11T07:27:00.000+10:00

;)

How Could You Be So Cold?

2009-12-11T07:00:00.000+10:00

Hola blog readers!

It's the end of the year! Spm is over. I can hardly believe it myself. Secondary school is officially over as i won't be staying for Senior Three. But i'm highly anticipating Sports Meet 2010! Go yellow house!

Anyways, i'll be going off to Brisbane tomorrow morning(later) since one of my sisters is graduating. We'll be spending Christmas in Melbourne with family which is new. I'll be back on the 29th december, so mark your calendars!

Will miss you all! Fay, emily, jemeh, karan, danile, hydraulix gang. I already miss Derek! Aiyoooooo i have a long day ahead of me!! Charge my ipod, pick a good book and i'll be seeing my family in a few hours.

Aiyaiyaiyai! I STILL HAVE SOME PACKING TO DO! :/ yes, big fail. Love you all! Good luck on your jpj exam, claudia! Congratulations on getting your licence, lexis. Too bad we didn't get to hang out before today. And omgah. Did you hear? Brigitte is back in town!! ;) go welcome her home!!!!!

Steff. C:

Don't Talk About Things You Don't Understand

2009-12-03T14:15:00.000+10:00

Yeah. I'm talking to you. With your contrived eagle eye view on everyone's lives you think you understand perspiciously. Cause sometimes, it's good to keep your mouth shut.

It's Wearing Me Down

2009-12-02T05:09:00.001+10:00

:DDDDDD
Spm is almost over.
Got my diving licence.
VJ shoot tomorrow.
Last subject next week.
D:
Karan's not here.
Haven't seen any movies. Not even 2012.
Banyak orang leaving.
Don't have Dexter.

Weeeehoooo. I need to empty my cameras into the computer because i'm out of space but skrg i malas so i'm not gonna do it. Have lots of pictures of the yellow house orientation and and and. That's all i can think of off the top of my head. :/

The photo di atas saaaannnaaaa tu was sent to me by Hanafiah. He's one half of the couple who went diving with me during the period of my course. They were my friends for 2 whole days under the sea. *cue teh musek plz* A very awesome couple from kl who work for Petronas. Wheeeee. They had those expensive waterproof camera cases. It was funnn!!! Will update you guys on a bit later ey?

Steff

Secrets That You Just Can't Keep

2009-11-24T01:12:00.001+10:00

One-sentenced blogging still lives, aaron.

Burn Brighter

2009-11-20T22:06:00.001+10:00

Meowr

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spm spm spm spm spm.

Not as bad as you'd think it'd be.

Good news.

I'll never have to get a quick cram session from Charlene about the silly malay stories/poems and what their antagonists do.

Same goes for Sejarah. I actually don't mind history. but having us study it in bm blows. Somehow we managed to have Chinese History and Sejarah but no history in english? puh. Glad that's over.

We had EST today. It was ehhh okay. Essay topic was on friction. Physics topics. Thank God i still remember my form 4 Phys. :D

i know what you're thinking.

Pro. ;D

hahahahah est is fun. Being sick unfortunately, is not.

I haven't been in the mood these days. I haven't been in any mood, actually.

My brain's on hold most of the time. At least that's how it feels.

Well, it's better than thinking uncontrollably. Less tiring.

Karan's going to Brisbane on Sunday. :'( She's going to see Green Day in concert. :''(

darn spm. Also, she's coming back a day before i fly off.

Which means the chances of me seeing her this year is not likely at all.

I wanna play blue mask. And see your liquid leggings. :'((( ndak jadi.

Try we get lunch w/ yemeh before you go off? Maybe tomorrow?

no more 10 second crazy rawrganasss shots. :P

Well, you better post the Mcflurry song when you're in Bris. At least the internet is chepatsss. :D

REMINDER. SHIRT. FROM. CONCERT. if can la. :)

Yellow house news:

We have to meet with the newbies of ttss on thursday during their orientation. Wear Yellow.

Our mascot's Homer. I'm sure a last name is not necessary. Wheee.

I watched Surrogates today at home. It was eehhhokay. I mean, imaginative but surprisingly, i didn't find anything special about it. Not hungry oh today. Don't know why. Unproductive too.

I think i'm going to head out. Find something to do.

Whuat? you want photos? Teda oh sorry. :x

i'll try. k.

Steff.

Spend Every Moment I Had With You

2009-11-16T07:51:00.000+10:00

I know you're not fairy. That's not you anymore. I miss our directionless conversations, late night phone calls, if-a-horde-of-zombies-came-right-now situations, cs-campzones-in-your-house discussions, seeing you at metro, text messages containing simpsons, rawr, hwyd, GGKKTYBB, pinching my face, dancing around in K house foyer, what's your 20?, report to base camp, one-worded text messages, being the bearer of bad news about 'fictional' characters(pffftt the tooth fairy SO exists!), sitting around discussing cushions, talking about child labour, fighting for food to survive with an ogre, making exits before we're supposed to, buying cheap useless crap we know we're never gonna use again ever, dissing each other's music, bone crushing hugs and random mms-es. I know you're under housearrest so make the most of it. Kick some spm ass like i know you can. I'll see you when you get out, bub.

Big hello to big photoshoot before big bye to me? :3

You know i love you to twenty kabajillion to the power infinity x infinity squared bits, right? <3

They Won't Even Miss You At All

2009-11-16T05:03:00.001+10:00

Hey guys. I haven't updated in a longggg time. Apologies. Much has been going on and i haven't found the time or energy to blog about anything.

Basically, here's what you've missed if you do not follow me on twitter.
Our dance team got first in Tshung Tsin Star. I got my driving licence. We are currently maidless. Spm is starting on Wednesday. School is officially over, not counting the days we need to go back to school for spm. Been eating too much. Running in the rain somehow didn't get me sick but durians did. I haven't started studying. We've run out of Bundaberg. We just got Bundaberg. I need to start packing for Brisbane.

study tmr. Must.
Steff

All At Once

2009-10-28T04:39:00.002+10:00

I need to know that this feeling will pass. That maybe one day i'll wake up and not think of you. Not even a little. I'll be able to get through a conversation without thinking he always said that. I'll have my insomnia without having to wonder whether or not you're awake. I'll hear my message tone and my mind and heart doesn't jump hoping it's from you. I won't remember things you've said when i'm where we were. I won't think of you when i'm reading poems or doing english literature. I won't remember all the corny things you've said just because you had to say it. It's taken a long time but it's finally fading. A big part of me is so relieved. But there will always be that little part of me that will want to remember. I'm getting there. It's so close now. But i'm starting to doubt whether or not it's what i really want.

Twice

2009-10-28T02:08:00.002+10:00

Please type 'bleepz' into the box.

kthxbai

Show encrypted text

luv.

I Don't Know What To Do

2009-10-23T04:20:00.004+10:00

It's hard to be perfectly honest when you yourself find that sometimes the things you think are just plain mean. I really need to control my thoughts better. I'm losing control and i find myself arguing with myself whether or not i'm being a total bitch or what i'm thinking is reasonable.

I hate it when my brain kicks into overdrive and i'm thinking about all the things i think you're thinking about when i can't sleep. It does not help at all. I'm losing my mind!!!

Another thing i feel like ranting about, the awkwardness. Don't you absolutely abhor the awkwardness that exists after something happens between friends of a group. And suddenly, the group is forced to pick between the two. Conversation pieces that used to thrill in turn, become taboo. And you find yourself constantly stopped mid sentence by your own brain screaming that you can't go there.

ARGHHHHHHH.

Why is it so hard to be friends again? Yeah, i get it. Believe me. I do. Something between you. BUT DON'T YOU SEE IT'S KILLING THE GROUP? :( I hate events that we used to go to together but now someone needs to find another group to go with cause it'd be too weird sitting at the same table. It sucks. So much.

And frankly, i'm sick of it. Yes, i know i should be prepping myself for SPM and putting my insomnia to good use. I doubt that's gonna happen. I've been listening to this song for about 2 hours now. Maybe it's too soon. I'm rushing things? Oh gosh. Am i? Maybe i'm not ready.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh self doubt is not what i need right now at this particular moment in time.

Note to self: Pay Karan and pass tickets.

I have bad memory. I mean, really bad memory. I have trouble remembering what i did earlier in the day. Mom says i'm just lazy but i resent that cause there are some pretty important stuff i know i need to remember and it's imperative that i do. So the next possibility would be... stupidity? It's definitely a more likely reason. :P

Hence, i am always writing reminders anywhere. Explains my often tainted arm or hand or table or wall. Scribbling in my planner. Writing things down just so i'll remember the next day. hahaha i think my brain is deteriorating really quickly for a 17 year old.

Everything's so much more complicated when you're right there in front of me. :(((((( i'm feeling whiny. ahahahha i'm sorry. When that happens, it's hard for me to write well.

Oh right. CONGRATULATIONS ARE IN ORDER!

Derek, you got into Trinity. That is really awesome. :D Proud of you!

For all of you guys who aren't done with exams yet, SHOULDER TO THE WHEEL! :D

And for all of you who ARE done with your exams, BURN YOUR BOOKS. :DDDDDDD

aih susahla for me to not be emo.

steff.

To The Stars

2009-10-21T16:46:00.003+10:00

:D Audio update! :D

Steff.

It Does Not Get Me Going At All

2009-10-19T04:02:00.001+10:00

Hey guys! I'm a bit miffed cause it turns out the next QTI i can take will be in the first week of November cause my instructor will be away for the next 2 weeks or something. :/

I was so looking forward to getting it this month since my renegade is finally ready and out of the workshop. :D there's going to be an off-road experience going on in borneo and me and dad are probably going to join in for the first stretch of the journey. Just for fun. We'll be going through the jungle. :D in my renegade. Wooo. It's going to be happening sometime around the 25th.

A day after installation night. I'm not quite sure if i'm going just yet. Still thinking about it. Hopefully i'll get to go. :)

Halloween's this month but this year, there's going to be an interchurch prayer meeting at Kyrugma house. All are welcome and together we're gonna pray until the roof lifts off a little. :D so come join us. It's gonna be awesome.

Supposed to have an english literature exam tmr but i haven't been feeling well today. So i'll have to see how i feel tomorrow and hope that all goes well.

:D
lub steff

Don't Come Any Closer

2009-10-16T23:47:00.003+10:00

Ahhhhhh i love this group of idiots. :D HAHHAA Check out this video please. Please? :3

LINK HERE. :DDDDD GOOOOOO

ahhaahah this really made my day. It was so awesome that i felt the need to blog today. So thank you for being the catalyst of this end product, guys! Love love love you guys to bits. Sucks that you're leaving on Sunday, Danileeee. No time for another l4d session or another video, maybe? Uggghhhh but it was so good to have you back. Even if it wasn't that long. Fine.. it was too long. hehehe LOVE YOUUU. HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT TO SING TO THE POOR. :/

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRHHH. WHUT UP. OH it feels good. But so unproductive. :( hahaha i know. i know. First, i complain about my exams being torture etc etc. Then i complain after my exams are done about me not being productive and bored. I suck.

And also, i'd like to apologize to someone i've hurt recently. I had no idea you had a problem with that and i feel like such a douche. UGH i'm sorry!! :( i love you. good luck with your exams. :(

Frustration. We all go through it. It's just how we deal with this frustration. I have issues when it comes to dealing with things. Is today get mad at steffi day? Or is today my piss everyone off day? Cause i feel like, well it isn't brilliant but, suck today.

Thank you guys for that video. I know it isn't targeted for me but it was awesome. :)

After i'm done with my exams, my friends are just starting. Or they're prepping for spm. Or going back to sing to the poor. Or they just don't want to see me. But then i don't think i can consider them friends, can i? heh heh. :|

yeah. I've been watching a lot of old movies at home. And i hate how Ryan Reynolds is married to Scarlett Johansson. :( i want to bercyber with danile, justin and david. Or pool with derek. :( i miss them.

HAHAHAH i just got a message from Justin. AHHAHA WELL, POTONG STEAM LA. I know right. booooooo. ahhahahha ahhaahahah i'm talking to twong and yemeh. <3>

ahhhh jamie's gone to the bathroom. SHE'S BACK! :D

Do You Hear Me?

2009-10-06T13:46:00.005+10:00

Question: Joel: Why do you blog? (via blog post)

Aim: To investigate why i blog.

Materials: 10 Fingers, thoughts, Backspace key.

Apparatus: Laptop.

Procedure:

1. Fingers are used to apply pressure to the keys of keyboard and type out this stupid Chemistry experiment based post.

2. Thoughts about how you came to blog are recorded and chemistry books on the table are ignored.

3. Go through archives and draw up a basic general classification of blog post.

4. Observations are recorded.

Observations:

Previously i did a whole excel about blog posts and what they were about and how many of them were written in the year 2009 but the table failed to copy and i malas. Sorryyy.

The results can easily be seen if you're a frequent reader anyway.

Discussion:

1. My friends and how i miss them and what they make me feel and things we do. I like to document things(feelings, things i do etc.) because i have terrible memory. This same reason is why i keep a detailed planner of things i do and distinct things that happened that day. I probably wouldn't know who i was if i lost my diary and my blog was magically deleted or something.

2. Photos. Photos have been lacking because of the rate of upload. It's freaking slow. :( and i get very frustrated but i put photos cause i want people to see what i see sometimes.

3. Vent. I vent a lot. I can be a very angry person and I need an outlet that won't hurt people's feelings. Well, i try not hurt people's feelings through my blog. But i don't know if it works. It's just a way to deal with issues.

4. Crap. I talk crap a lot. When i'm typer or when i'm feeling happy. It's just who i am.

Conclusion:

I blog because i feel the need to be heard and seen. Call it attention seeking or whatever you like. But i think i just need to feel like i exist and that the things i feel and do and hear are real. I need my friends to remember me. Not the me that you think i am after 10 minutes talking to me but who i am what i stand for andddd the rest. I'd like to think that after 30 years. I'll be able to tell my hypothetical children what i used to do when i was their age without any errors. I'll be able to remember my friends. The ones who made my life my life.

I am very emo person oh? :D hahahahhahhah bah. Not a very well done experiment though.

Time We Spent Together Was Never Quite Enough

2009-10-05T23:35:00.003+10:00

I'm in trouble. Spm forecast exam is starting on wednesday and to be perfectly honest, i'm not prepared at all. I've been trying. But nothing's going in. Kinda pisses me off. This is a really important exam. After this, i'm practically on holidays. Honest.

I drank the root beer you gave me for my birthday, karen! :P finally.

I miss dreaming. I dreamt this morning, in that one hour. I'm not one for telling people about dreams of mine. But it was a really nice dream. I was sitting with my best friend on his roof. And we were just talking. He was telling me how i'm worrying too much about so many things then we walked to the park and sat on our see saw. The park isn't wasn't what it is now but what it used to be like when he was still around. We threw around that stupid tennis ball he used to carry everywhere. And i felt so safe and at home after wandering around trying to find my way for so long. Thanks for resuscitating me again.

Thanks for talking some sense into me. I really miss you. I don't think i'll stop missing you. Keep watching over me if it's not too much trouble. :') you made my week.

steffi. <3

A Thousand Faces We'll Choose To Ignore.

2009-09-26T00:32:00.005+10:00

It's hard to think straight when there's so much going on. I can't put these unfamiliar feeling into words. Like. Gah. Thank God i'm not taking my IELTS tomorrow. I haven't been able to write or say anything properly this week. All i've been doing is feel. And i can't stop. And it's driving me crazy. Okay umm. Try to think back to something that hit you the strongest. Got it? Now, multiply that by 62^infinity squared.

ARGH. I. CAN'T. EXPLAIN. HOW. I. FEEL.

and it's pissing me off immensely.

Instead, i'm just going to random picture drop!

i miss Charlene. :)

KARAN!

WHY WON'T THIS GLASS BREAK?

MMMMMMDEWEK

I miss Darren also but he couldn't meet us that day.

Fine. not so random. I just miss you guyssss. :(

I had a power outage last night. :/ Couldn't finish my update.

Gah. I feel good today. :D

Eklektos tonighhttt! <3

NGIAOOOOOOOLOOVVVVEEEEMMEEEE!!!

dsteffi.

Dear Karen

2009-09-20T14:56:00.002+10:00

aka Karan. I looovvveeee youuuuuu sooo much!!!! :D

Thanks for the invite to your party. Despite being one of the only two tshung tsin people at your party, i had fun. :) It was a little awkward at first but it got better when we finally sat down. hahhaha I knowww you had a lot of fun! :D You looked gorgeous! AHHAHA you know where my favourite part was. xP

Ohhh i'm so sorry i didn't give you a speech like David and Joshua did. But you know how i get in front of a crowd. heh. I'm sorry. You wouldn't have wanted me to puke over the dance floor. ahhaha i nearly did before me and alex went on stage. Dry heaving ftw!

I didn't take many pictures cause i was distracted to say the least. I'm happy Nadym and Chloe were there to call me superloser. hahahahhah I'm really sorry about Wendy who lost her phone. It really sucks but stay strong, girl. :) You're lucky to have a calm man by your side. ;)

Ohhh karen. i'm so sorry i didn't dance. :D Didn't really feel up to it. hahaa i'll dance with you next time when i get my license. ;) you know what i mean, giiiiirrrrllll. hahahhaha

Once again, love youuu dearly. And i know you won't be feeling alone next year cause from what i've witnessed last night, you have lots of friends who won't let that happen. :) I'll see you the year after the next. :D

I Swore I Saw You Smile

2009-09-19T02:36:00.004+10:00

I've been so quiet these days. It's like i have nothing to say anymore. Surprised? Believe me, you're not the only one. :X Blogging's become harder but i keep getting updates from friends. Peer pressurized into updating without anything solid to update on. Which usually brings about a boring post. So i don't know why i'm even submitting this post.

Nyah. Since i've started, i might as well finish.

mm. In form form maybe? :I Bear with meee pweassee. :3

I am pretty sure i should be sleeping.
I have been hanging out with Alex all day.
I am happy that we have one day short of a week of holidays.
I want nothing more than to have you.
I will need to wake up at 6 to bring my brother to school for the entrance exam. *fingers crossed*
I think i need to figure out what i'm going to wear tomorrow. :O
Theme of my week: People need to stop saying goodbye then coming back again. :/

Yeah. I suppose that's it? MmmmMMmmmmMmmmmm....

OH OH I KNOW! ahhahaha I hate it when you make a video, take all day/night editing it. And then Youtube's a bitch. :/ Gahh Then your contents expire and you need to make another video not forgetting that the things you might mention have cross references to old videos that you've made and have not successfully upload. Gosh it pisses me off. hahahaha

Do you ever want something so bad that it makes you want to scream everytime you think about it cause you know you're never going to get it? GAAHHHHALJKESHDFOAISHEOFBALKSEJN;ALKSJHNLFKJASNLEKFDJHALSJKEHRLFKAJHESLDKFJBA,JEBFL,KAJSBEFKAGGGGGGG

Hi people. I have cooled down. I'm not tired. I have not worn it for a day and already i miss it. Although it's just in my drawer. I need to start going through withdrawal. :( So far so good?

Ngiaoooo i'm excited! :D for tomorrow night though. So excited and nervous in a you kinda want to puke but you only find yourself dry heaving into the toilet bowl kinda way. :D GAH it's the good kind. I hope. NYAH.

HAIIII PAPER TOWELS! HOW ARE YOU GUYS? :D i actually kinda miss you guys and this place is gilllaaaaaaaa senyap mannn. gahhh.

I'm feeling whiny and i'm sure you feel it too. Sorry.

bahhhh i need to be productive.

I came this close to writing a song today. THIS CLOSE. but then i malas. :/ so it just flew away.

& yes i realise that there is no way you can tell how close but shut up cause papayas are orange and so are oranges but which one is orangier? Huh? HUH, PUNK?! Betcha never thought about that one. Yeahhh you sit down and think about that, kid.

hi, hidden message readers! :D

Night. Lub steffi.

All The World Can Watch

2009-09-13T22:05:00.004+10:00

I have a feeling this is going to be one of those posts again. Avert your eyes, people.

Sometimes before i post a very personal train of thought onto my blog, i hesitate. These trains of thought may range between a honest-to-goodness random thought or something i think of when i'm jiwang or emo or whatever. Or how i feel. Basically my rants and vents.

The reason i do this is because everytime i do and i mean everytime, I'll get someone come up to me when i'm sitting in class (this doesn't happen very often seeing as i'm a little different in school/class. Maybe outside too. But that's beside the point) and they attempt to psychoanalyse me.

Okay, a little background.
Majority of you who are here, i probably know you through church or you study in other schools or both. DUH. Anyways, i'm a little quieter in school. Awkward. I don't have a lot of friends. And that's just me. Who i chose to be.

Anyways, they'll throw all these questions around and try to tell me what i really am feeling. For example, when i'm feeling confused, they'll tell me it's just because i'm feeling antsy etc. Maybe you're just trying to get to know me better or that's just how you show me that you care. Or that you're concerned about me. Or maybe you just wanna "relate" to me. I don't know. Nor do i honestly care.

I know how i feel. I'm the only one who knows what i'm feeling when i'm feeling it. And i'd really appreciate it if you'd stop pitying me, thinking oh, poor girl. Got into a fight with her best friend again. or getting so emotionally upset over nothing again. Just. Stop acting like you know me so well or that i'm so predictable. I don't need that. I don't need anything from you. I've never asked for anything from you. Maybe now you're just confused as to whether or not i've ever asked anything from you or not. Believe me. If I've ever wanted anything from you, you'd know and i'd have it.

Maybe in your head you've built up this idea of me being happy all the time. Who's happy all the time, man? At some point in your life, you will cease to be happy. And that's normal. If you never knew about this side of me, that's good. I really wish i could always be happy for you, but i don't know that that's possible.

I'll be okay. Is that what you want me to say?

Tell Me I'm Wrong

2009-09-07T00:54:00.004+10:00

The truth is i have nothing to say. I'm hoping the words'll come as i write.

Well, I went to Page One on Friday. Alex was pretty awesome but he wasn't the only one. I'll post up a video of the song you want to hear soon la kay, lex? :) Remember, the jam on Wednesday and also i'm sorry i couldn't meet up with you today. Something came up but i hope it was nice and i do hope you get used to it! :D And how was it?

Page One was awesome. Waiting for the next installment. I wanna soak up as much of the music scene KK has to offer before you know what. The only thing that sucked was that we had school the next day. I got home pretty late and needless to say, slept pretty late. Got up really early the next morning and stumbled to school to listen in class and take tests. :/

I recall complaining many times this weekend about how suckish it is that we have school on Saturdays and that we only get one day off the whole week. We have the rest of Saturday, but by the time you leave school grounds you're tired. And Sunday's family day and stuff like that. And i mean i love family day and i don't want to get rid of it but i wish i had time to spend with my friends too. If only there were one more day in a week, maybe it should be called Chuckday! ahhahahhaha God, i'd love to have a Chuckday. :D

Daryl came home today, so welcome home! We're meeting up tomorrow with the rest of the OC gang. I feel very cold. I think i might be getting sick. I hate being sick. I need to exercise. We went antiquing today. And i mean a lot of antiquing with my aunties and uncles. We bargained the crap out of chinamen. ahahah David Koh's back too apparently. Just got a message. :O

My good mood is gone. I think i was riding on a high the whole week. But that's okay cause it lasted a lot longer than it should have. So that's enough. I'm having a tough time. :( And i should get some sleep. Imma go to bed after i update my pod again. mm i should.

Night night.

Wait. They don't love you like i love you.

We'll All Float On Okay

2009-09-03T23:45:00.000+10:00

Hey guys. What up.

Time's running out for me to decide what i'll be doing for the rest of my life. Do you remember when you're in Junior form and you have this huge decision to make that would cause a chain reaction in your life? The decision between Science Stream and Commerce/Arts. Me being the confused idiot that i was, picked Science stream just because it'd give me leverage when i'd actually decided what i'd want to do.

Two years later, where am i? Exactly where i was two years ago. I think i mentioned in a previous post that i was going to do mass communication. Maybe it was twitter. I don't remember. The point is that i'm back to where i started. Now, i don't want to do mass communication. Ugh. Oh messy messy.

My education consultant says i'm overthinking things and that i should just do my foundation and keep my science subjects, just on the off chance that i might choose something science related. This is exactly what i'm doing now. I can't stand this unsureness. All these talks about my future with family/friends. What the frack am i supposed to do in life?

Oh. I might as well move to Japan and live with Irwin. I'll just teach English. :/ Oh, i'm so frustrated. But surprisingly, i've been in an unbelievably good mood since school started. Well, even before that but usually Kunya and I are so grouchy in school. Somehow the both of us are in really happy moods. We're just waiting for it to wear off cause we both know they're not going to last. I have nothing to be happy about. Honest.

I'm in between places right now. My mood's all over the place. And no, it's not what you're thinking. There is just so much going on. Things i need to get done etc. I'm overthinking everything. :( Ohh pessimism.

We're just so opposite. What are the chances right? :O Oh, and i swear facebook hates me. Seriously. & I have a big test tomorrow. :(

On the plus side though, Daryl's coming home this sunday and Daniel too! Joy!

I'll picture update next time. But don't hold your breath.

I'll Stay The Same

2009-08-29T16:36:00.000+10:00

eeeee tiba tiba malas blog. sorry

I Wish I Knew How To Break The Spell

2009-08-24T05:14:00.008+10:00

i'm reading old messages in my inbox cause i'm going to do a mass delete soon. There are 3478 message here and my phone's starting to lag pretty bad. Therefore a clean up is necessary. These messages date back to when i first got this phone which was 16th May.

I'm feeling very very nostalgic. At first, i was planning on just deleting everything without giving it a second thought. But.... I couldn't resist dipping my toes into water that is my inbox.

I started out by reading the first few messages i got from friends in this phone. The short conversations that represented our time and the long foreign ones we sent back and forth in various languages. I miss that.

The next place that caught my eye was the birthday wishes. There were so many of you! Some sending long messages, poems. Others sending short but meaningful messages with our inside jokes included. Birthday messages from across the world. That was really sweet. And even though i didn't get to celebrate my birthday at all this year, considering i was having my chemistry exam the next day. It was nice. Oh wait, i did celebrate it. Sort of. Thanks to the bunch of you who showed up at my house at 11pm with ice cream cake and hugs. Good times. And thanks to fay for the 'surprise' cake. :p mom still feels bad about that.

So many messages explaining missed calls and misunderstandings. Making lists of which guys were whose. Bartering for them if the results matched. Food.Quoting favourite scenes in movies and shows. Bashing each other about emo music when the both of us listen to the same music. Full of replies to "how was your day?"s. Invitations to go cycling at 5am. Inappropriate and random questions that I still remember the replies I gave them. Photocliks that didn't happen. Conversations concerning spray paint and vandalism. Vacations that sucked. Food. Dates that bombed. Sudden goodbyes. Socks. Chuck. James too. A lot of :3s. Creating of new smileys. Late night conversations. Stupid 'confessions of love' that happened every 4 minutes. 4 way conversations with the oc gang. A surprising amount of messages concerning coupons?! Food. Arguments i don't even remember the causes of. Pots. 'Nuff said. Questions that came right out of the blue with the sole purpose of getting information. MMSes of things to amuse me. Messages from people who aren't here anymore. Conversations about robots. A big wad of messages asking me not to freak out so easily. A lot of messages about Star Wars and Ewoks. Weird events that happened, explained in full detail. Certain conversations concerning Avatar. Text-based Pokemon battles turned harry potter characters battles turned professor oak battles. Negotiations on punishments. On Tuxedo and jamie and karen making me really sad (XP). Silly little banters that make us such good friends. About charmanderzzzzxxxxzxvvxvzxz. Fights over tamagotchis. About food. A lot of capital-lettered laughs. A lot of great memories.

The senders are pretty much the same bunch throughout the year with the exceptions of some falling out completely and some new friends joining in. I wish i could say that my inbox will be filled by the same people next year. But we can't live in the past. No matter how much i want things to stay the same.

I know i'm making a big deal out of just deleting my inbox but friendships were made and broken there. Lots of memories. I know it isn't the end of the year yet but the majority of this year was in there. Yes, that's just how much jamie and karen have upset me. Hahahha. Don't think you're off the hook, derek.

Good luck, karen on yout theory exam! Have fun in kl, fefeh. Emli, i miss youuu.And we got first in music fest yesterday. :D awesommmmeeee.

Steffi.

P.s. My inbox is empty now. Want to help me fill it?

Remember When The Boys Were All Electric?

2009-08-21T01:32:00.008+10:00

I've been bloghopping, as certain people do when they are bored. In example, you go to a close friend's blog then you proceed to click another person's blog. Then you do it again. And again. And again. Right. Anyways. I can't help but noticing people skipping school cause they feel like it.

This really makes me wonder how many people actually do this. Skipping school when you feel like it. I mean don't get me wrong, i knew it happened but we're talking about a lot of people

skipping school. Of course, they're using the H1N1 as the reason. And they spend their time

playing video games, hanging out etc. Can't help but feel a pang of jealousy.

In my school, you skip school. You apply leave. And it might not even get approved! Punyalah

syok the students from other schools. After exams, you can run around school under some weak excuse and still be fine. In the torture house that is my school, we have classes, more tests than usual, homework holiday enough to last us through the end of the year, teachers are pms-ed about our exam results and shit like that. Remind me again why i'm in this school?

Oh, that's right. Because we get hand sanitizer at the stairs, our temperature gets checked, they switch off the aircon to prevent germs spreading, made the young ones wear uniforms that are hydrophillic and untidy. Oh yeah. Don't forget the inane high standards. This is the dream.

Right about now, you're thinking

what about friends? doesn't she have friends? God, how pathetic.

Of course I have friends, weird-voice-in-my-head-that-voices-out-opinions-of-nonexistant-

people-probably. I have friends. Even the worse person in the world would have at least one

friend. Unfortunately i'm so very close to that person.

Everybody has a fay to their emily. brook to their peyton. marissa to their summer. chuck to their morgan. Hopefully you got my drift by now or i really don't understand why we're friends. But I have to admit. I have no idea who's mine. yes, you're right. I am pathetic.

So, lemme get this straight. After 17 years on this world, you have no george to your izzie?

That is correct, sir. Oh let it go. I have friends, okay? This was only to make you realise how

great my school life is.

PHOTO TIME!

why? Cause now i'm depressed. :( ahhahaha

:( don't you hate how blogger can only upload 5 pictures at a time? And how slow it is? :/ gehh

overdue pictures from february. :p

Shinko!

i love this couple. :D

candid

Might i add that the tsen/chong clan looks mighty fine. :p

caaaandid

okay. this isn't candid.

Everyone's awake.

Everyone's asleep. ;)

Actually i think i've updated this trip before. :P HAHAHHAHA whatever. Gosh i hate how slow the pictures upload. ahahhahahahahahhahahahah this site's very very very addictive.

au revoir. I should sleep dammit.

When I'm The One Who's Selling You Out

2009-08-15T18:40:00.004+10:00

Helloooo!!! Last night was the best sleep i've had all week. Jesus, i love weekends. After Malay and Chinese, which i think i failed of course, we had music fest practice then worship practice. Mm hmm. Then tuition was cancelled. Awesome. Then i went out with a bunch of friends. Listened to music, ate mackers, argued over who'd get the tamagotchi. Basically had a great time. Apart from the exam part of the day, it was a really good day. :D

Today, I spent half the day in bed. Not sleeping but just enjoying the rain. Yes, very unproductive indeed. I could've been studying but didn't. Derek challenged me to learn the 7 page long tabs of Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton and post it as a Youtube vidjeo. He has to do the same thing too. :p Anyways. i'll do that as soon as i can but right now i should focus on my ongoing exams. Although i am playing Zork. :P

Tonight. Church. Supper. Back to church for Music Fest practice. Ohh yes. Tonight's gonna be awesome.

Tomorrow. Study sejarah and go to tuition. :/ Sounds really bad.

Nothing to look forward to except zork. :p GAHHHHHHHHHHHNOTHINBUTLOVE.

You're Not Welcome Anymore

2009-08-07T01:05:00.003+10:00

I wish i had some interesting observation to share with you guys today, but i haven't been much of a spectator these days. I'm overlooking a lot of stuff i really shouldn't. Missing signs i should've seen. But. But. but. but i've updated my ipod. :p hahaahha that has nothing to do with being an observer.

Been torrent downloading. teehee. I love torrents. Some are painfully slow but at least i'm getting new stuff. :D Right, so i failed to mention in every form of media that i failed my grade 8 violin exam. I won't be able to retake it in March cause by then i'll be in Brisbane. Ah well. i ruined my teacher's Grade 8 100% passing rate. :p i know i shouldn't sound so happy. :/ *remorseful*

hahaha right. I owe you guys a lot of pictures still. Haha man, i suck. Today was a surprisingly good day. And i have a huge test for Sejarah tomorrow. And i haven't studied. I probably should study. Yeah. I think I should.

I'm addicted to cake. yuuummmmm. I'm addicted to a lot of things.

I've been sitting at my table for hours. Well, i finished my homework. Some other stuff that really had to be done. But still nothing from my Sejarah textbook. One of my torrents finished downloading. And i'm just typing random stuff that come to mind over the course of a few hours. Please, enjoy my train of thought. Or rather, just ignore this post.

Exams start on the 11th, Tuesday. End on the 17th, Monday. Parents'll be out of town. Party?

Aww man that sucks. :0 You shouldn't miss out just cause. You'll want to look back and remember everything. Even the sucky events. Trust me.

Oh, swooning's a hobby of mine alright. Something's wrong with twitter. :/ weeeiirrdd. oh wait. twitter works now. This post is crap. Honestly. hahahha

I really wish i could do something to help you out. :/ meowr. my hands are about to freeze off. Ooh the weather in Sandakan was bad. They took off but they had to turn back. Dad just got home. 0.0 poor daddy.

Oh dilemma dilemma. HAHAHHA can i just say that going out on a motorbike to a drive-thru for ice cream is not smart? :p hahaahahahha

Exam mood has not hit me yet. I'm in trouble. Oh, i'm in astronomical trouble. Oh god. Come on, steffi. 4 days away. PUT IT THROUGH YOUR SKULL!

eh. didn't work. Oh man i'm screwed.

so, my toes are numb. That's bad huh?

Can't help but feel like i'm abandoning you. :( It's not what i want to do.

It'll all be alright. Right?

But They're Pulling Down The Branches Of The Tree

2009-08-01T20:06:00.004+10:00

I feel better. And less whiny.

Hooray for feeling better.

Also i love cake. <3

Yummy. :p

I've been a fat ass the past few days. All i do is eat.

Exams are up in 2 weeks.

Gasssssspppppp

Peh i don't know.

In other news, I sent out my uni application a few days ago. And i got the confirmation of acceptance of offer. I was offered to do two semesters of foundation. Yay. But it's conditional upon my spm mock exam result. So i guess i won't be able to blow off the rest of the year. Ahhhh well.

It sucks that both of you guys got picked. Guess my last two months in KK will kinda sorta suck now. I miss you guys already. :( I'm gonna miss all of you guys.

Vlog's still got problems and won't go up. GRRRRR MALAYSIAN INTERNET.

I need to shower cause Tshung Tsin Night's tonight and mom's making me go with her. Yaaaaaay. No youth. :(

^ this yaaaaaay is sarcastic. Just btw.

Hahahha Karen and Nadym just called. Saying they wanna hang out after. Let's hope i can goooo. Cause i miss Karen and Nadym. Even though the last time i saw Nad, he did try to push me off a really tall wall. Daaaammmmnn. But still, miss em both. :D

CROSS FINGERS.

Ngiaaaoooo.

Make it last. Make it last. You. Me. Together

Like You Never Lost A War

2009-07-28T00:29:00.002+10:00

Sometimes i forget this is here. SORRY. I've been busy. Also, this just in, i say "I've been busy" a lot. But whenever i try to think back and find out what i've been so busy with. It's always blank. I think I'm more tired than i am busy. Don't get me wrong, I am busy. It's just, by the end of the day, it's likely i'm so tired from the all the accumilating events that i can't really remember what i did that day. Oh yeah. That and i have very bad memory. And i mean really bad memory. So. That's the end of that psychoanalysis. That excuse is getting old.

I have a better one though. I've been sick. A lot of people have been sick. It's just flu season. Which is a bad thing! You guys should eat your vitamin C and multivitamin and cod liver oil. Stay healthy and try your best to avoid this annoying period of time. There was a point when i had to stay at home to rest. I know how that sounds.

Gosh, steffi's so lucky. She doesn't have to go to school and study and be tortured.

Well, you know what? Do you know how much it sucks to be at home and want to sleep but can't? Sometimes people are just ~~stupid~~. Daddy dislikes me using that word. Therefore i shall replace it with silly.

So, I'm eating apples, checking my mail and listening to an album i just downloaded. (yes i am a pirate) Arr Matey! I have an EST presentation on something to do with technology tomorrow and i haven't made my powerpoint yet. Wondering how i'm going to pull it off. Hmm. I haven't even decided on a topic yet. I should probably work on my powerpoint presentation now ey?

You Thought It'd Be So Easy To Fool Me

2009-07-17T01:33:00.002+10:00

Hahahahahha i have a huge biology test tomorrow. But i haven't studied.

God i'm irresponsible.

oh that and i'm dying. :)

I'm Tired Of Trying To Be Sensible

2009-07-15T01:40:00.002+10:00

When did i let myself become this spineless girl that i loathe. Gosh. I disgust myself. Thanks to you, one day she just decided it was alright for her to come out. Was too blinded to stop her back then. Now that my vision's cleared. All i can say is buh-bye.

Well, i'm back. Try not to hate me for it.

Cry For All The Things You'll Never Be

2009-07-10T01:13:00.002+10:00

Bundaberg!!!

I want it so bad. I can't find it anywhere anymore. Grrrggullluhhh!!

Here is where i put aside my Ewok cries and apologize once again. It seems that i have been doing that a lot lately. The reason i am apologizing to my blog is because i've been updating through my phone. And through this phone, the blogger browser does not have upload picture or font or hyperlink or anything else for that matter. All that's here under the title, is spell check and preview. Which is... Useful. Yes. So, a picture update shall be the lovechild whenever i can get my hands on a computer that has internet access and has not blocked blogsites etc and when i am not gaming. :P hahaha

I have not been a happy camper. Not that i'm a camper. I'm speaking in both in-the-wilderness and in-cs-slash-cod-slash-any-war-games-really kinda sense. I can't explain it. Anywho i have two extremely difficult tests and a couple of essays due tomorrow, so i'm just going to crawl in bed [CHECK] and just sleep well thanks to the drugs. Not. Psych. Chyeah cause i'm just the poster child for heroin and erectile dysfunction.

Sorry. It's just been a really long week and i find myself daydreaming about falling. Chyeah cause everybody loves to fall.

Bye bye my sweet bloggers/bloghoppers.
Hope you're all well.
This sounds so formal.

Steffiiii.

Unhealthy Obsession

2009-07-07T01:24:00.003+10:00

It's nice having Charlene back in town. Series marathons to have, late night cyber cafe, midnight mcdonalds runs, inside jokes, Tommy and Charlie practically living at our house. It's been fun. Wonder what it's going to be like next year. Nahhh... I think I'll leave that for next year. No point setting expectations that might not have been reached. In case you don't know me, that's the kind of person i am. I don't aim. I never aim. Well, you know, for basketball or whatever that's different. Hahah but i'm talking about goals. Things that most people aim for. For example, exam results. I have never aimed for UPSR, PMR, UEC. And i'm pretty sure i won't aim for SPM. I know that it's stupid that i'm not exercising my full potential and all that road-to-self-improvement crap. But that's just who i am. Who i've been for my whole life, really--- fine... until this point in my life, at least.

This really isn't a very bad tactic. Just think about it! No expectations = no disappointments. Hmmm maybe i'm being a coward. Eh, don't know. I know it's over but i've been feeling so tired. It's hard for me to catch up with my schedule. Strange. But then again, maybe it's cause i spend my nights updating my blog even though virtually no one reads it. :p

I owe you guys a huge update. :p Everything's been piling up. I need to get started before i'm buried alive.

Night, peeps.

IOU, steffi.

You Don't Know Me Like You Should

2009-07-01T23:53:00.011+10:00

It still piques me how words can fail to evince one's adour, or lack thereof, rather. Isn't human nature ironic? All it took was one brief reverie to send me into the long overdue downward spiral into that hole that derek dug himself into. Now that he's out, it's vacant, which conveniently is what i've been these days. It's just the sheer absurdity of the timing and my inane choice. Sometimes i feel that i irk myself more than anybody else can. I can't submit to this plight.

Right. I forgot to tell you. It's over. ):)

But I'm Stronger Than You Know

2009-06-30T11:00:00.000+10:00

zomggggggggggg! Exam today.
At 4. At imperial hotel.
Ohmygosh i'm scared. Oh my kalua. Aahhh.
It didn't hit me until i typed it out.
Great job, stef. Nice, scaring yourself.

Ah shit. Ohmygosh it's today.

You Must Live For Me Too

2009-06-27T23:55:00.000+10:00

i was thinking, on my way back from violin class, that i was going to have to post a happy post.

:/ i'm sorry, this isn't going to be a happy post. :(

:( i'm not going to repeat how frickin annoyed i am. Or how tired. Cause i'm starting to hate myself, what say you huh? What chance do you guys have?

Anyways, i hope tomorrow'll look up. I don't want to die. Wait. Do i? Nahhhh i'm not suicidal. :/

i don't think that you know what you've been missing

AHHHHHHH6HHHHHH FUGGIN ANIMAL FARM. :(

It's Not The Same Without You

2009-06-23T23:05:00.003+10:00

Well, so much for freedom after tomorrow morning. I was so psyched and anxious for it to be over. But no. Of course it didn't come. Nope. Couldn't let me have it, could you?

Ughhh i'm so tired of this exam and all this preparation. Make my blood boil. While everyone's enjoying their last year, going out with friends to movies, islands for photoshoots, coffee houses to talk. Here i am, spending school hours at home, faking pneumonia, being sick, going through aural, playing double-stops. Gosh i swear it's torture. And truly, i'm sorry i'm being so whiny and sad and emo and jiwang and sad and emo and whiny and jiwang and sad and whiny. Oh wait, i said that already. :/

I don't know when the exam date is. Please don't postpone more than a week. Please don't postpone more than a week. I need this to be over. I really need this. I'm starting to hear myself internally recite relative majors and minors and subdominants and dominants and supertonic minors of keys. Arghhh it drives me mad. I think i'm losing my mind. There are times when my brain just hangs. Honestly. It just hangs for a few seconds.

I'm losing it. I'm confused. I'm sick. I've stopped feeling my hands. I'm sad. I'm miserable. I need you.

I'm sorry guys. Happy steffi just isn't going to be back quite yet.

The Name That Puts An End To Death

2009-06-14T01:27:00.002+10:00

I don't want to fade to black.
I can't be another silhouette in your lives.
When this moment is over, you'll forget me.
And everything we did, we talked about.
Then where would i be?
What would happen then?
Brief moment's goodbye?
As much as we'd like to believe,
Our time's running out.
When that last grain hits the pile,
You're gonna want to remember all the great things that happened.
Why waste time with these formalities?

T.C.

Never Knew I Could Hurt This Bad

2009-06-13T02:32:00.003+10:00

oh god oh god oh god

I can't go back there again.
Can't go back again.
I just can't.

Imokayimokayimokay
Ohgodohgodohgod
Imokay.

Can't go back.
No no i can't go back.
Oh no.

No i can't.

Please don't make me go back.
No. No. No.
i'm okay. I'm fine.
Yeah. I'm good.
Yeap. Oh gosh.

Yeah i'm fine. I'm good.
I'm okay. I'm alive.
Okay okay.
I can't let myself go back there.

I'm good. I'm good.
Yeah i'm okay.
Oh gosh.
I'm okay

You're okay, steffi. You're okay

2009-06-11T05:01:00.001+10:00

Oh, i am definitely going to die young.

They Found You On The Bathroom Floor

2009-06-11T04:25:00.001+10:00

Hey honey, i'm home!

Yeah, i've been back since tuesday night. The trip to Danum Valley and Sandakan was fun. It was nice to get away from my violin (finally). Even if it was a short break. I'm going to have to update you guys on that a bit later cause since i've been home, we've gone back to full time practicing. But fear not, good citizens! For it shall be a picture update. Or something... Mm hmm.

In a nutshell, the trip was fun, tiring, awesome. C: i shall go into detail after June. I'm sorry. This thing is taking a lot outta me. Anywhoosenheimergliderfooshen, school's starting next week. It is Wednesday. No wait, Thursday. And apart from those 4 days of the trip, it has not been holiday. So please don't ask me how i've spent my holidays or why i have been turning down your invites. :C i don't want to talk about it.

So, practice finishes about this time and starts at about 8.30 am. Spm art folio is due the second we step into school on Monday, and i haven't started at all. To put it lightly, i'm screwed. Lovely lovely lovely. Oh sarcasm has been running through me like blood these days and i haven't been the nicest person. Yes, i do realise i am kind of being a bitch. But sometimes you guys are just... URRGGHHHHH!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? Just consider yourself lucky i'm not allowed out of the house or i swear i'd go to your house if it were in perth and strangle you to death. I am not referring to anybody in perth. It was just an expression.

I am very sorry that i'm making your eyes bleed from reading my stupid whiny thoughts but that's just how it is at the moment. And you don't have to read it if you don't want to. You can come back after June and i promise the posts will be back to happy happy joy joy i'll teach your grandmother to suck eggs ren and stimpy shizz. Alright? Thank you.

UNSCRUPULOUS! HAHAHAHAHA LIT. CLASS PEOPLE, YOU KNOW WHAAAA I'M TALKING BOUT YO. HAHAHAHAAH

Yes. Yes. I can't understand if you told me just to tease me or you honestly meant well. For the maintenence of my outlook on people in general, i'm going to make myself believe it's the latter one and that your extra, extremely unnecessary for me to know information was not a blow beneath the belt of you flaunting your unbelievable treachery of the breach of trust between friends that you had the audacity of committing. Just now when i used it, it was just at random, but now... SIMPLY UNSCRUPULOUS! URGHH!! I honestly don't know how to put up with you. Or how to respond to you in general. I don't think i can have you around me or anywhere near me in fear of myself spontaneously combusting. In the process taking out the entire human race, including the good ones. :C Cause that would not be pretty at all.

What you did was unforgivable, still i forgave you. And still you taunt me. Yeah you won. Now can't you leave me be?

I'm so tired of all my fairweathered friends. Glad i still have a few i can vent to. But some of you guys are slipping away and I'm missing you guys so much. Ah.

Oh man, if only you knew how many times this post was edited to make it reader friendly.

Just. Ah.

Greetings, earthlings (insert exclamation marks here)

2009-06-06T02:59:00.004+10:00

Hello my dearest blog readers!

Hahahaha. Gay alert! Moving on. Hello. I am Aang and i am here to tell you that i am the last airbender and you had better not cross me or you will have to experience my awesome four-elements bending. Woah. Stay back. Cause i'm dangerous. Why did i just ask myself to stay back from myself when i am myself. That is physically impossible. At least i'm pekretty sure it is. Yes, pekretty. C:

... Right. Cause i actually came here to tell you that i am some hundred year old boy who has a giant blue arrow on my head. Actually, i'm here to tell you that i will be away until Wednesday next week. First off, i'm going to Danum Valley tomorrow morning which is in Lahad Datu. Those of you who follow my twitter should've known this for awhile. I'll be there for 2 days. Or nights. Actually i'm not really sure. :p yes yes, i suck.

After that i'm heading down (or up, don't really know(man, i suck)) to Sandakan. Lovely place. To watch the opening of the Saga Games. Awesome. A lot of you guys'll be there, so i hope to see you guys run/jump/whatever-you-will-be-doing. :D unfortunately while my parents will be busy, i'll probably be alone. Hopefully some of my friends can keep me company, though i doubt it. I'll just be the nerd walking around the place alone. Please don't rape me.

I actually haven't even started packing yet. And i have, wow 5 hours till i get on a plane to Lahad Datu and then a bus to Danum Valley, away from all communication. No reception, see? But i think i'll survive. Was hoping to keep you guys updated through twitter, but i don't think i'll do even that. Maybe i'll steal a little internet time from the main office just to let you know that i'm alive. Hahahahah just kidding!

I'll be fine. And i'm really looking forward to it, seeing as these past few days of holiday have been total lock down for me in my house. Violin is horrible. I'd advise you not to take it up. But then again, that's just me. :)

Not quite sure but i have a gut feeling that i will enjoy being away from internet, cell phone reception etc etc. :)

I'll miss you guys! You know who you are. C;

Steffi lah bah.

You're Changing Your Heart

2009-06-04T02:39:00.005+10:00

AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH i was discussing with Jeremiah about getting a wideangle lens
here is our conversation:

Steffi says:
considering i can even find it
Jeremiah says:
how much
Steffi says:
well it says $1400 uk
so times 6
Jeremiah says:
omfg
Steffi says:
yeap
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
go sell ur arms and kidneys
Steffi says:
the pictures had better be freaking awesome
Jeremiah says:
http://www.dpreview.com/lensreviews/sigma_70-200_2p8_n15/
LOL
HSM ... high school musical focus
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHHA
I SAW THAT JUST NOW
WAS THINKING IT TOO
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
hey it looks freking good
its macro again that
looks fantastic
despite the suspicious name
Steffi says:
hahahahahahahhaha
oh, give it up
ahahah
no dust and moisture sealing but still
ahahah
Jeremiah says:
price 2.6k
great for potraits too i guess
portraits*
http://cgi.ebay.com.my/Sigma-70-200mm-f-2-8-II-f2-8-EX-DG-APO-HSM-Macro-Nikon_W0QQitemZ350124101452QQcmdZViewItemQQptZCamera_Lenses?hash=item518505cf4c&_trksid=p3286.m63.l1177
Steffi says:
hah
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a quiet and high-speed AF as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHHAHAHAH
HONESTLY, MAN
HAHAHAHA
Jeremiah says:
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual focusing capability.
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHHAH
Jeremiah says:
hahaha
imagine people who you zoom into start dancing
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHA
that's hilarious
ahhaha
Jeremiah says:
wow i want a lens that could
This lens incorporates HSM (High School Musical), which ensures a Noisy and high-octane Dances as well as full-time manual moon walking capability.
i forgot to change the last part
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
MOON WALKING
hahahahahhaa
Jeremiah says:
HAHAHA
Steffi says:
so it really looks good?
Jeremiah says:
from an hsm point of view
minimum focusing distance of 100cm/39.4in
Steffi says:
HAHAHAHAH
Jeremiah says:
around 3.28083989501 feet
to focus on something
Steffi says:
bet you googled that
hahahaa
Jeremiah says:
closest
no i wiki
haha
jk
Steffi says:
hahaha
Jeremiah says:
i convert with a metric thingy

hahaha i love Jeremiah so so much. :P
Especially when he can make fun of HSM while being extremely busy and helping me find a lens. Truly awesome. :D

Wanna taste of Jeremiah?
Link yo. More like hyperlink. :P

Favourite quote of the day:
"Troy and Gabriella are way better in this than the last 3 movies... They moon walk here" - Jeremiah

P.S. Thanks for the much needed reason to update.
Just FYI, i've been fine. Will check back when i get the chance to breathe.

It's The Weekend

2009-05-26T02:06:00.004+10:00

Hello prospective candidates for marriage!

Honestly, where do i get this stuff? Anyways, i've got to say it!

After not talking/texting/im-ing/webcamming/seeing. Basically after such a long period of absolute silence ( not cause of feuds or arguments or whatever but just being plain busy ), if someone calls you out of the blue and tells you they're riding to your house to drop something off. Even if it was a can of root beer and a money-less ang pao taped onto it and left it on your gate light. It's pretty darn awesome. Thanks so so sooo much, Karen! :) missed you!

I find it hard to believe so many people remembered, seeing as i myself kinda forgot about it. Ah well, exams'll be exams. *indifferent shrug* i'm having BM1 and Computer tomorrow. Two subjects which cannot be/ do not require studying. Then Bio, A Math, Chemistry, EST and sejarah on the last day. After that, everybody'll be going crazy with fun, thought-out-during-exam-week plans. Whereas i shall be stuck in the house or my teacher's house playing an instrument that makes me wish i could implode voluntary. Yes, it is that bad.

Favourite quote of the day:
Mate's msn pm: crap all over my hopes and dreams (or something along those lines)
*opens conversation with him*
Steffi: "What if i'm constipated?"

Hahaahahhahahhahahahahaha why am i so so gay? Why am i favourite-quoting myself? Bah. I'm strange. Not to mention self centered. Whuat?! Call me self centered?! YOU'RE SELF CENTERED!!!! Gosh. The nerve of some people. :p

People never cease to surprise me. :)
We-ll, actually.... Chh.

Take care, future husband/wives/children/second uncle twice removed/modes of transport/peanutology/peppers/alias/hugh jackman/cookie/pillows/corpses/useless buttons/myogenic jerks/pieces of the sun.....

Zomgthiscouldtakeforeverbahigonowloveyoulongtimeznitez.

Let's Leave Them

2009-05-22T19:54:00.002+10:00

Hello, blogger!

Today was the first day of exams. It didn't really feel like it cause the subject was English. But it is the marking of the start of the exams. And even with that, i don't feel exams quite yet. Darn. If this keeps up, I'm going to be in big trouble.

Anyways, I've been trying to upload a video for a few days now. Since the 19th to be exact and it's pissing me off. It's explaining why i haven't been and will continue to not update for awhile. I guess I owe an explanation to the blogs too. But I honestly don't have one.

So, this is me. Forcing myself to update. Just a sign that yes, I still am alive. How do you like the layout? I suddenly got sick of the last one. So i changed it up a bit.

Ngiaaaooooooo I don't know what to write about. gah!

We'll Meet Again

2009-05-08T00:31:00.004+10:00

hi everyone.

It's been a really long time since i've been to either blog.

It's scary what happens when you just suddenly lose it.

BUT HELLO. I'M HOME.

At least, i'd like to think i am.

...

wow. if this were home, it'd feel pretty uncomfortable right now.

HAHA

okay, here's the thing.

I'm really sorry i haven't updated in forever.

My last post was 18th april.

That is a big big gap.

GAHHHHHHH don't hate me plz.

I gib you sweeets.

I'm pretty speechless, as it is obvious.

But at least i logged on! D:

I know, not good enough.

BAHHHHHHHHHH

night, bye.